i am trying to be heroic
wow i havent been on here in ages.
its strange, looking back on the last year i feel as if im still the same, but reading back on it in some ways i have grown up, become more cynical and less tolerant. a lot has changed since i last wrote.
i now live in a flat in hayes with rachel and im her legal guardian
im part time in college, but i never go in
but i did good on exams
i have a new cat called chrystabella who is 7 months old
and i moved pepper in with us too
rachel was in college but has kind of dropped out
her boyfriend tom basically lives with us
and lawrence has been staying for the last month and a bit but goes back to wales soon
i dont really know what i do with my life
i need a holiday.
i dont have the internet anymore
so i never update
and i dont think as much as i used to
i have a counsellor, who is nice, i dont know if its helping, i dont know if anything ever helps really.
on red nose day it was two years since we found out my dad had cancer.
i still really miss him, ive been dreaming about him a lot recently.
but i suppose i am kind of getting used to the fact that he isnt around.
christmas was very strange.
juan turned out worse than i even thought she was.
i dont know what else to see
i feel jumbled inside, confused, peaceful, angry, repressed.
i didnt think id remember my password for this, i will probably write again soon.
i hope everyone is well
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
its strange, looking back on the last year i feel as if im still the same, but reading back on it in some ways i have grown up, become more cynical and less tolerant. a lot has changed since i last wrote.
i now live in a flat in hayes with rachel and im her legal guardian
im part time in college, but i never go in
but i did good on exams
i have a new cat called chrystabella who is 7 months old
and i moved pepper in with us too
rachel was in college but has kind of dropped out
her boyfriend tom basically lives with us
and lawrence has been staying for the last month and a bit but goes back to wales soon
i dont really know what i do with my life
i need a holiday.
i dont have the internet anymore
so i never update
and i dont think as much as i used to
i have a counsellor, who is nice, i dont know if its helping, i dont know if anything ever helps really.
on red nose day it was two years since we found out my dad had cancer.
i still really miss him, ive been dreaming about him a lot recently.
but i suppose i am kind of getting used to the fact that he isnt around.
christmas was very strange.
juan turned out worse than i even thought she was.
i dont know what else to see
i feel jumbled inside, confused, peaceful, angry, repressed.
i didnt think id remember my password for this, i will probably write again soon.
i hope everyone is well
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox