shes just another girl who wants to rule the world
so, after the longest gap ever its time to update. rachel left on the 15th of august and im still missing her very much, she told me that she'd come over and live with me if i wanted her to but i wouldnt ask that of her because i know that she wouldnt be as happy here, though i wish so much that it wasnt the case. reading festival was wonderful as ever, i got sunburnt and saw millions of bands i love though im starting to think nothing will ever beat reading 2003. i had my birthday, ive never been much of a fan of it and i missed rachel who had just left, my mummy who i havent seen for 9 months and my dad who i couldnt see in case he caught my cold though it might be the last time hes alive for my birthday. but since then ive had a joint birthday party with lucy which was very fun and i was a pirate and got very drunk with people i loved and awwww that was good. im missing my family in norfolk sooo much, i havent seen them for two months and my dad went to see them while i was on a mini break with clare and her daddy to the sea - which was also really fun. and and ive moved out of my house.....i hadnt been spending much time there anyway and then my dad basically said it would be better if i didnt live there anymore so last week i moved all my vital crap over to clares house and have settled it into the spare room and have been here since. its kind of sad that juan got her own way after all, shes wanted me out ever since shes been in the country and i wish i hadnt given in but i just couldnt take her anymore, culture difference or truly horrible person, shes still unbearable to live with. no having my kittens is breaking my heart and i miss them so much and give them lots of love whenever i see them but i hate how im always conflicted in my love for things. im also trying not to think about the fact that im not making the most of my dad and living with him, we still talk on he phone and i still visit, i was supposed to today but 'maybe itd be better' if i go tomorrow, so any gaps in our relationshp are not to do with me.
ive also started college, im doing intensive courses in business studies and philosophy and i had my first lessons last night. my business studies teacher is suicidal and trying to drag us all down with him and my philosophy class is a collection of silent unfriendly oddballs....but i have made a couple of friends, clares in my business studies class aaaand i get to see jayme and all their friends so im pretty lucky all in all.
im sadsadsad cos all the university people are leaving, most left this weekend or are going next weekend and im going to miss them all so much! and they want me to visit but money is suuchsuch a big issue at the moment that i really dont know when ill be able to so its all a bit undecided.
i could go into lots of deep meaningful stuff but really, i dont want to think about all of that right now. i just wanted to edit where my life was right now so any future entries are in context!
love. lovelovelove xoxoxox
ive also started college, im doing intensive courses in business studies and philosophy and i had my first lessons last night. my business studies teacher is suicidal and trying to drag us all down with him and my philosophy class is a collection of silent unfriendly oddballs....but i have made a couple of friends, clares in my business studies class aaaand i get to see jayme and all their friends so im pretty lucky all in all.
im sadsadsad cos all the university people are leaving, most left this weekend or are going next weekend and im going to miss them all so much! and they want me to visit but money is suuchsuch a big issue at the moment that i really dont know when ill be able to so its all a bit undecided.
i could go into lots of deep meaningful stuff but really, i dont want to think about all of that right now. i just wanted to edit where my life was right now so any future entries are in context!
love. lovelovelove xoxoxox