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urgh and im so wound up i cant even sleep, i just want to attack something. i also feel guilty for being mean. though i know she dereved it. my family all drive me crazy. i try to care for them all but it just ends up with no one caring about me and telling me all their stuff that im meant to make better like its my fault when its actually nothing to do with me they just know ill listen and give a damn. and im sick of people saying they miss me when they COULD see me and dont. HELLO i have no job or education or money or life. wheres the problem??? and this rant could last forever. and i have repressed poeticness inside me trying to escape but im not going to let it because im too angry and it would be too red and black and white and fury filled for words which is what id have to try to condense it into. my. head. really. hurts.