Emo poem..proceed with caution

[hopeful_wish]

I feel like such an emo. I should really be in bed but I kept thinking of Mum, and I just needed somewhere to write down how I felt, so hear it is,..god I miss you Mum.

I wish I had more talent,
to write down how I feel,
But this is all I have to offer

I wish I could see you,
Just one more time,
Just to say all the things I never said

I wish I had told you I loved you,
Told you how I really felt,
but now it's too late.

i wish I hadn't avoided you,
but I was too scared to look at your face.
I believed things would get better.

I wish I would have paid more attention to all your recipes and stories,
They're all forgotten now.

I wish I would have talked to you.
Instead of hiding away,
To find out how you really were, and what you really felt.

I wish you could see me now,
Studying at Uni,
Am I doing the right thing?

I wish I had listened to all those biol classes.
Maybe then I would have had some idea of what was going on.
But it was too painfull - I didn't want to cry in class.

I just wish you were here.
I wish the doctors hadn't made that mistake.
Maybe then you'd still be alive.

I wish there was a cure for cancer.
Maybe then we'd be in New Zealand, and you'd make my wedding dress,
Just like you promised.

Yeah..somehow I think I'll delete all this in the morning...