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i hate this feeling. this feeling of not really knowing how you feel at the moment. i have all these mixed emotions about everything and maybe it's because of all the racing hormones that occur once a month or maybe it's because of...i don't know. i just feel so alone all of the sudden. even when i'm surrounded by all the people that i love , i feel like distant. it's really hard to explain. i mean, i'll just be hanging out with my friends and i know them like the back of my hand and they know me inside out,too and then all of the sudden i'll just feel like they don't me and they don't understand any of the things i do or how i feel about anything. it's a really hard thing to explain. i feel like there's something missing and i don't know what it is and it's driving me fuckin crazy. and when i try to think about what it is, my whole mood changes and i start to think diffrently about everything and everyone. i guess i think that if i try to reevaluate everything and everyone i can find what's missing. yeah, i know it sounds really out there, but that's the best way to explain it. the only way to really understand it is to be me-and i don't think anyone wants to do that.