cos i never, never sleep alone

[hope_meets_less]

i dont have a goddamn thing to say
i am nothing and no one and nonsense
no obligation no fascination no frustration
dont sweat it dont love me and dont provoke me
to search for other answers that may not exist
lets trade nievety for numbess and be the most passionate of lovers
dont tease me when you need me
dont search for me when you'd rather destroy me

i want to be as dead as i am to you
i want to live in paradise and suffer more
than you do now just like me in front of this machine

i want to look in his eyes while he talks to others
i want him to follow me into the other room but not persue me
i want to disappear for days and reappear more of a person
i want that
i want to say to you "i love and adore you." and then i want to die

i want (you) to eat your heart out.

i will be confused while looking for lips through these similar faces searching for familiarity
i want to know you

you will tell me all your dreams the next morning and i will tell you what you're afraid of
you will think you're really onto something and i will put us back in our places
i think we need a sort of trip away from all the usual influences
where we would travel with the windows down screaming over the howling wind like old times in your room
i would stare out my window and only look to you to see how the trip has weathered your face and placed bags beneath my favorite eyes

two drunk boys just knocked on my door and invited me to their room
they are not real but characters of the night
i think i will stay here and absorb that fleeting moment of nothingness