what is going to happen to me?

[hope_is_dying]

i have had nothing to do but think today.
i have been very sad today.
i don't remember if i have cried, i am trying so hard not to.
i came so close at work. at the mall. at this moment.
oh my gosh, i have thought so much today.
so many realizations.
i am the biggest fool in the world.
i am such a fool for you, for love, for life, for trust, for believing, for hope.
a fool for friends.
my friends are fools.
i am so sick of being depressed and crying all the time.
i am so sick of being in love. wanting this freaking love.
i want you more then anything.
i just don't want to cry anymore.

the new year came, the old resolution passed. awesome timing for you to hate me. the new resolution killed me. or, at least, it will.

i always love(d) you