your not 18 anymore, 5 years should have been enough time...
for you to grow up and get over this. its not too cool, throwing up all morning sick from what you might have done or done it with. I swear, If I could take your pain and frame it and hang it on my wall. Maybe you wouldnever have to hurt at all, I'm painting pictures in red and blue......A portrait bruised just like you......And now you're walking away.....
i love that song ooooodles. and oooodles. i've had a bad couple of days. massive world war 44 with jeff. work sucks. my nose ring is infected. im poor. im hot and cold. what a horrible physical disagreement. positives? i got an A in speech, which is a 4 credit class, which bumped up my GPA. i didn't have to work the party of 140 at work tonight (thanks daniel). family guy is on. i have a hoop in my nose and i love it. my friend said i look loopy. y'know, lip ring and nose ring. i told grub i was a poo face and he agreed. it saddened my heart. more downers? i got bored and put a huge list of bands on my myspace, and jeff freaked out. so now i am a poser and listen to that music "because i want to be cool and make friends". psh. ass. he then preceded to make a huge fuss about it on his myspace. numero uno: i like my music cuz I LIKE IT. i dont give a shit what anyone else thinks about it. numero dos: i listed bands i like, not necessarily ones i listen to every second of everyday religiously. the ass made sure to point out every band he "knows for a fact" i have "never even heard". hmmmm right. since we so often listen to music together anymore. i am awesomely frustrated.
i saw the movie Garden State last night. it 'twas truly amazing. i pretty much cried the whole movie. i had alot (ahhh jeff) on my mind. i got really pissed off in the beginning though. they had this huge party scene with drugs and alcohol and young girls and i got really mad. i fucking hate that shit. i seriously got sooo frustrated, i was like "ah i want to leave this town". then love came, and i preceded to cry the whole movie. love. love oh love. it fucking sucks huge ass rat balls. needless to say, i will most definatly be purchasing the dvd the day it arrives.
i really want to move away. i really want to get a new car. i really want long hair again, just for a day or two. i really want to break someones heart (well, his would be ideal). i really want a job where i can wear my peircings so they dont always get infected and i dont always look gay because the balls aren't on the hoops. i really want a new tattoo. i really want christmas to hurry up and get over with, it is depressing me more. i really want the next year to go away so i dont have to think "oh this time last year, jeff and i were ________, and it was great!". The year anniversary of good times and happiness is drawing nearer and nearer. i really want to kiss, and be kissed. i really want an amazing back massage. i really want better internet so i can download songs. i really want a darkroom of my own. i really want to stop biting my fingernails. i really want happiness and love and comfort and support. hmm. there i go again.
