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[hoozdababee]

man, i havent made a journal entry in forever!! well a lot has been happening since my last entry. first of all, i dont feel crappy about me and my husband anymore. i have decided that although he isnt perfect and sometimes does stupid things, he does love me or he wouldnt be with me. he does and says sweet things sometimes, like he was talking

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[sabrael]

Alright, look. I'm really not trying to be a badguy here, but she was really upset a few days ago, saying she didn't like herself anymore, telling me various things that various people said and you were one of them.

Maybe it wasn't intentional, I don't know. She feels really sniped out when people tell her things approaching that being herself is a negative thing. People being themselves is something to be celebrated, as long as they aren't hurting anyone.

I just want to know what's so bad about "weird". If nothing were unusual we wouldn't be a growing race, you know? I honestly don't care that you're (probably) nothing like me. That's not important. We're humans and it isn't important who is like whom. That said, none of us have the right to gauge what is "normal" and "not normal" as long as it's not breaking a law, you know? That's just a point I wanted to make to you. Perhaps I didn't take the right approach. You seem like a good enough lady, hopefully your heart will open to the idea. It's a good idea to have in heart in this world.

[hoozdababee]

well, like i said before, if something i said hurt her feelings, she could have just told me and i can honestly say i would have apologized. i never said anything to hurt anyone's feelings. i am usually honest when i am voting, but still try to be polite because i don't want to hurt people's feelings just because i don't like the clothes they wear or the music they listen to. but i guess that is what the rating community is about, i really don't know. i didn't think the little things i said mattered that much. i NEVER say anything that is downright mean to anyone. when i first applied for that community, there were a lot of people who said some pretty mean things about me, too. that i was "effin ugly" and stuff like that. but i didn't let it get to me because not everyone is going to see you for who you really are. i've said that lots of times before, that its really not nice to tell someone they are "ugly" or say you don't "like them" because you don't even know them yet!

i think you came at me the wrong way. maybe if you had just said "you know, there was something you said a couple of days (weeks?) ago to a friend of mine and it really hurt her self esteem. i think maybe next time you should try to be a little nicer blah blah blah..." and i really wouldn't have gotten so upset. two wrongs don't make a right. you coming and telling me off and insulting my intelligence is not going to make your friend feel better about herself. she should know now (since you went to all this trouble for her) that she is loved by you and all of her other friends and who gives a shit what other people think of her??? tell her that for me, ok? as long as her friends think she is the best it doesn't matter what some dumb people (myself included, not saying i am dumb though) think about her because we don't know her like her close friends do.

i have a heart, and sometimes i feel like the grinch when his heart grew 10 times bigger...it sounds corny, but its true. i hurt for people when other people put them down, and yes, sometimes i get in foul moods and just feel like being bitchy. but you can ask anyone in any community i am in, the majority of the time i am extremely nice. i really like making friends online, and i have a few that i don't know in person but that i consider really cool people and good friends. being in those communities to me isn't even real, its all pretend and its fake and alot of the things going on in them aren't even serious! so i try not to take it too seriously (unless its a serious subject). i think its wonderful for everyone to be different. i am different. i am half black and half white, i don't listen to rap music like most black people do. i don't wear a lot of the clothes that most of them do, either. i like to be myself. i would never intentionally put someone down for being different, and if i did, i'm really sorry about it. i didn't think it would go this far.

i am a nice person if you get to know me. i am smart, funny, and caring and i am a really good friend. i have an open heart and an open mind, but i AM human and i do have bad days! maybe your friend just caught me at one of those times, and i'm sorry about that. so please next time just try talking to me about it instead of coming to my journal and talking crap to me. i would never do that to anyone, not even you.