why me?
why is everything going wrong for me? my parents want me to "not feel trapped anymore", so i have to find an apartment. ive been approved to a couple, but i have to have a down payment of an assload of money, so i went to the bank today to get a loan. the loan officer ran my account info and found out that im overdrawn. i forgot to record a check for the first time. (good timing on that, huh). so then she runs a credit check on me and some collection agency ive never heard of has an outstanding medical bill for 360 on me since 2000. i had everything medical covered for the whole year of 2000. they never once in the past 5 years tried to collect this debt, so for all this time its been ruining my credit score. and now i cant get ahold of this company because it keeps saying all circuits are busy, try again later. im beginning to wonder if its a phony company. i dont know what im going to do if i cant prove that i didnt owe them any money. if i dont get my loan and consequently dont get my apartment, im gonna be pissed. then ive got the whole al thing. i dont believe erica, first of all. i have never heard one ounce of truth out of her mouth yet, and im not about to start now and dump him over it. if he says he didnt do that, id be much more inclined to believe him over her any day. she hates me, why would she be trying to help me? he is bored here though. i can understand that. hes live in detroit most of his life and now hes gotta deal with this hokey shit. and if he wants to move back down there, theres nothing i can do to stop him i guess. im just keeping up this colorful candy shell around my heart. i got burned bad last time, i dont want that to happen again. i just dont know what to do anymore or where to turn. i feel like i could fucking cry. im trying so damn hard to make things right in my life and i just cant catch a break. why me?