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i once thought that i had to prove myself to everyone, cuz i felt i was neva good at what i do..Strange? i kno but for some reason i alwayz thought that i was the underdog..the opposite of this idea neva occurred to me till recently. Actually not even 2 weeks ago to be exact..It was one of those cold fall wednesday bowling nites and of course i found my team facing one of the best teams in the league..Now myself and my teammates knew that this would be no easy task to beat 5 men who all average around the 200's or greater. Ill begin it by saying that we didnt win one point that nite, not even close..I think the lowest margin we lost by was jus below 100..and after that first game i fell apart and normally i would be cursin and swearin and beatin shit up, and throw a tangent but i didnt :)...i guess sometimes u jus realize u gotta go wit the flow wit whats happenin, i mean my team had no chance, we bowled our team average every game but the team we were bowling averaged 221 a man for the nite..no team in the league would have came close to them as well..so in the first game when we were getting our asses kicked i jus sat back and was calm, even when i missed an easy spare i jus smiled and sat back down..even in the 2nd game when i opened up wit 4 outta the first 5 frames wit splits and ended up wit a 137 (for me a 190 is a low game), i jus smiled, laughed had a good time..who knows y this transformation took place, but i like it a lot better..i look at it from the view point that im a 20 yr old averagin close to the 200's and that almost 98% of ppl my age can't average that high...thats sayin something, and i have no reason to get upset...my recent turn of events allowed me to find out that a lot of good bowlers asked me to sub in for their teams on certain nites, besides i built up joy and nervousness i felt honored, jus one of those things i guess...last nite i was asked sub on an oil pattern the professionals bowl on, and i felt i passed wit flying colors..i shot a 205, 171, 232...and that 171 was wit missin 3 of the same spares, but hey shit happens and i did not get frustrated once :)...i realized ill be an even better bowler once i get my mental game straight and o man has it shown some improvements...im goin to texas next week and i cant wait :) i get to be wit my family and celebrate one of our favorite holidays, thanksgiving...Fat Kids of America loves that holiday as well :), newho off to take a shower and eat and then study for a tax test so i can feel smart again, until next time, maybe ill update on monday but we shall see...have a great weekend!!i alwayz feel like the one thing i did not do enuff in life is smile :), haha, well lata gata and take care!