want to know what's been bothering me lately.....well here you go
I give up. I'm sick of fighting to keep some of my "friendships" alive. It's not worth it anymore. I keep getting screwed over and being nieeve enough to think things will go back to being like they use to be. They just can't. I'm not going to feel guilty about it anymore because friendship is a two-way street and it's not my sole responsibility to hold it together all the time. I've spent way to much time contemplating this and being upset over it lately. Friendships aren't suppose to be built on two-fascism(new word...) and conveniency. I've decided if it takes starting over from pretty close to scratch to get my life back together and develop TRUE friendships then that's exactly what I plan on doing. I just want to be happy again, and I've found out that you can't rely on other people to make that happen.