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today was an alright day i guess went with my hockey team to joe louis watched a game the parents got smashed it was ok went to the morgan cd release had fun chillen with john and hannah there a great couple and then watched morgan i think there pretty fucking good and had fun with that yeah ok day called the women im happy she loves her job u know how i can tell she talks about it a bunch lol
i wish people would just be happy for me that im happy right now and not be dicks to me about having a women whose needs come first a lot of the times but thats how relationships work, im sick of feeling like i dont have friends its really fucking wierd not not calls from anyone what so ever like to hang out or anything but something they need,it sucks there always like "well ur always with adrienne" im definetly not always fucking with her or i wouldnt feel like this when i do call people dont answer i almost think i dont see any of my friends really bc 1 a lot of them just use what they can get from me bc thats all they really do in terms of our friendship, also i hate how i feel im not really that close with many people anymore bc i dont do drugs it almost pisses me off bc i have choose to not abuse a substance i feel kind of exiled from everyone and anyone who says that drugs are great for them and doesnt change them fuck that bc it does ive def witnessed it the passed year or so and if you wanna be like well youve changed to ur right i have changed but havent changed who i am i like to do the same things and am always up to have a good time, i feel almost older then everyone though im around its wierd my idea of a good time isnt being fucked i probable always have more fun not being, i think if i was never fucked up again or always completely sober i would be fine with that its wierd maybe thats a maturity thing but it definetly makes me feel seperated from everyone even my gf but i do feel she is def a maturity equal for me
im just so frustrated with feeling i dont have a life bc i like being social maybe i just need to be more social and make new friends i dunno i hate that im shy a lot of the times it sucks but i guess thats maybe what has to be done it just blows but i dont know yet it seems to me though thats what everyone wants me to do the wierd thing is im not sad happy or anything right now not even numb or mad i dont know how i feel there is no word i could use to describe this
i want summer i want warm i want to be able to go outside and just relax... to wear shorts and be able to run
i dont want to play lacrosse at all but im going to only bc it will probable be the only times i ever hang out with weak so i guess ill go through another great year of that shit
lifes been good though i need a job to fill in for this boredom i get and to get money, its kinda wierd this is def a male ego thing but i think im almost jealous that my women makes more money then me and has a perfect job go her
i wish people would just be happy for me that im happy right now and not be dicks to me about having a women whose needs come first a lot of the times but thats how relationships work, im sick of feeling like i dont have friends its really fucking wierd not not calls from anyone what so ever like to hang out or anything but something they need,it sucks there always like "well ur always with adrienne" im definetly not always fucking with her or i wouldnt feel like this when i do call people dont answer i almost think i dont see any of my friends really bc 1 a lot of them just use what they can get from me bc thats all they really do in terms of our friendship, also i hate how i feel im not really that close with many people anymore bc i dont do drugs it almost pisses me off bc i have choose to not abuse a substance i feel kind of exiled from everyone and anyone who says that drugs are great for them and doesnt change them fuck that bc it does ive def witnessed it the passed year or so and if you wanna be like well youve changed to ur right i have changed but havent changed who i am i like to do the same things and am always up to have a good time, i feel almost older then everyone though im around its wierd my idea of a good time isnt being fucked i probable always have more fun not being, i think if i was never fucked up again or always completely sober i would be fine with that its wierd maybe thats a maturity thing but it definetly makes me feel seperated from everyone even my gf but i do feel she is def a maturity equal for me
im just so frustrated with feeling i dont have a life bc i like being social maybe i just need to be more social and make new friends i dunno i hate that im shy a lot of the times it sucks but i guess thats maybe what has to be done it just blows but i dont know yet it seems to me though thats what everyone wants me to do the wierd thing is im not sad happy or anything right now not even numb or mad i dont know how i feel there is no word i could use to describe this
i want summer i want warm i want to be able to go outside and just relax... to wear shorts and be able to run
i dont want to play lacrosse at all but im going to only bc it will probable be the only times i ever hang out with weak so i guess ill go through another great year of that shit
lifes been good though i need a job to fill in for this boredom i get and to get money, its kinda wierd this is def a male ego thing but i think im almost jealous that my women makes more money then me and has a perfect job go her