Ummm...Yeah...What A Day
Thats my boo...He never steers me wrong...Love Ya BOW!
I just needed to hit reality right quick and say that the only man that has not done me wrong is BOW WOW. Love him to death and that will never end.
But yeah onto better things, Im done with the boy i claimed to be having feelings for. He's an ass and Im not taking it. Shyt i dont even know why i put with him to begin with. Maybe it was because he led me to believe that he had changed his ways, he was mature, and didnt like to play games. I mean at first thats how it was. Like he really had matured and all but then after VA Beach is when it all changed. He just turned into an asshole, a bitch, shyt whatever u wanna call him is what he turned into. Like im tired of his immature ass attitude and ways. I guess i was asking for too much when i asked God to send me a mature man that knows how to treat a lady. Im like so depressed right now. I dont wanna go back to Tony and i dont want this other boy. Ok well maybe i do want this other boy but theres no way im putting forth anymore effort. Im done trying my hardest to keep a guy by my side. I dont know why i always do this shyt to myself. Its like torture. Like i always get myself all hyped up over a boy and then it leads to failure and me getting hurt. Im tired of getting my heart torn into pieces because of a boy. Im stressed, Im frustrated, Im depressed, Im confused, Im irritated, Im crushed, Im all that bad shyt. I think Ive hit my ULTIMATELY LOWEST POINT. I wanna go lay down and cry myself to sleep but i dont know. Itll probably end up happening cuz Im tired of getting hurt but Ill see what happens.
Ok well maybe not. I just talked to him. We're good and it was me YET AGAIN who had to get us back on good terms cuz i was the one that called him cuz i was tired of all the bullshyt. But we're ok now.
Next, Tony called me telling me to open the door and it wasnt for him. When i did, there was a bouque of flowers and a big mickey mouse balloon. That was so sweet. Besides the fact that me and the boy i talk to are back on track, Tony really made my day. I love him.
SORRY FOR THE QUICK SWITCH-UP OF FEELINGS. But Im going to watch my back like shyt when it comes to him from now on.
TO BE CONTINUED...