Fic: Time Won't Find the Lost (3/3, complete)

[honeylocusttree]

Time Won't Find the Lost Part 3 (4,020 words)
Summary: In 2006, Sam walks away from his brother and heads to California to find their father. He winds up going a lot farther than he intended. (13,000+ words)
Warnings: Torture, language, dark themes, gore
Note: This was inspired by a scene in season 2's Hunted, in which Gordon reminisces about

Comments

[geckoholic]

Oh wow, this is indeed creepy, but SO accurate it hurts. Sam and Dean and the Sam from back then and, OMG my head is spinning. Also, it's eerie how much this does feel like 5.04 while at the same time totally doesn't.

Some gems:

Sam’s seen this expression on his brother’s face before, but not like this. Dean’s face threatens. This one promises.
CHILLY.

Dean is restless energy and barely-contained mayhem, joy in all things sensuous, a wild combination of violence and glee. This thing sits as still as a dead man, a half-empty beer bottle propped on one knee, its eyes hooded and considering.
THIS. Both of it just hits the nail on the head, and it HURTS.

“You don’t know, yet. You…you just ditched Dean to do the job by himself. You actually…you left. You actually left.” He stares like he can’t believe what he’s seeing, like Sam’s some kind of creature with a mind so alien he can’t begin to process its motivations.
I love that this Sam (our current Sam) just can't fathom that there had been a time when he'd put anything before staying by Dean's side. That makes my heart leap for so many reasons, good and bad and SAM. ♥

And the stranger’s suddenly in his face again, grinning like an extremely predatory Cheshire Cat.
ACCURATE. *rofl*

“You’re a monster.”
“It’s been said. By better men than you.”
OH SAM. *hugs him forever*

That's it, I'm done quoting your own fic back at you. In case you haven't been able to tell, I loved this! ;)

[honeylocusttree]

I love that this Sam (our current Sam) just can't fathom that there had been a time when he'd put anything before staying by Dean's side. That makes my heart leap for so many reasons, good and bad and SAM. ♥

When I was re-watching that scene, after not having looked at it for...well, a long while, my main response to it was "whaaa...?" It was so hard for me to reconcile Sam just walking away from Dean with any later Sam (who wasn't out of his head on demon blood, anyway). I can only really imagine him doing it at this point out of some misguided 'for Dean's own good' line of thinking, and that ends well for nobody. (But makes for good, angsty fic.)

Surprisingly, I found Gabriel to be remarkably easy and fun to write, as he is such an unmitigated smartass. And he gives the impression of constantly grinning even when he's not.

That 'better men' line was originally something else...something about how at least he knew what he was and baby!Sam didn't...but yeah, I like this one better. OH SAM INDEED. *hugs him too*

So glad you enjoyed this, and thank you for the awesome and amazing commentary of amazing awesomeness! It gives me the warm fuzzies. ;)