Can you help me remember how to smile . . ???
Oh that song reverberates inside my soul.
I cant do this anymore. I am not strong enough right now. I am sure that I am just overreacting because of my exhaustion, but i cant do it. The papers keep coming and coming and coming. WHen I think that I have made it through the worst part -- theres more. I was just given another tedious and long assignment to do and I cant do it. She wants it and a five page paper tomorrow afternoon.
Today I have to finish my 20 pg Comparative Politics paper
my 10 pg Church History paper
My journal for my internship
A 5 page paper for my internship
I need to work on my 40 pg Seminar paper
I need to read the 500 pgs of The Ways of War and Peace
I have to read that book to write my 20 pg International Realtions paper
and Tomorrow at 8 am I have a Masterpieces of World Literature Final.
I slept an hour last night -- actually it was thid morning. and two hours the night before and then 6 hours on Friday but then two hours every day last week except monday night. I havent slept in a week. I cant do this. I am drowning in misery.
Not to mention I cannot spend anytime with my friends. I am always holed up in my room working on papers. Last night I had to read 300 pgs for International Relations exam I just took and it did not go well. But I sure as hell tried. fuck.
I dont handle failure well. I cant fail -- I will die before I do. But right now all I can think is that there is no way possible to get it all done. I dont think I am going to make it. Saturday -- it has to be over saturday at 10am i graduate. If I can still walk by then. I am sobbing, I hate crying, hate it, but i cant do this. I am falling apart. literally. I look like someone punched me in both of my eyes. The circles are so bad and they were so puffy and now I am crying and i really can hardly open my eyes.
Y'all i cant do this . . .someone help me remember how to smile . . . please
I cant do this anymore. I am not strong enough right now. I am sure that I am just overreacting because of my exhaustion, but i cant do it. The papers keep coming and coming and coming. WHen I think that I have made it through the worst part -- theres more. I was just given another tedious and long assignment to do and I cant do it. She wants it and a five page paper tomorrow afternoon.
Today I have to finish my 20 pg Comparative Politics paper
my 10 pg Church History paper
My journal for my internship
A 5 page paper for my internship
I need to work on my 40 pg Seminar paper
I need to read the 500 pgs of The Ways of War and Peace
I have to read that book to write my 20 pg International Realtions paper
and Tomorrow at 8 am I have a Masterpieces of World Literature Final.
I slept an hour last night -- actually it was thid morning. and two hours the night before and then 6 hours on Friday but then two hours every day last week except monday night. I havent slept in a week. I cant do this. I am drowning in misery.
Not to mention I cannot spend anytime with my friends. I am always holed up in my room working on papers. Last night I had to read 300 pgs for International Relations exam I just took and it did not go well. But I sure as hell tried. fuck.
I dont handle failure well. I cant fail -- I will die before I do. But right now all I can think is that there is no way possible to get it all done. I dont think I am going to make it. Saturday -- it has to be over saturday at 10am i graduate. If I can still walk by then. I am sobbing, I hate crying, hate it, but i cant do this. I am falling apart. literally. I look like someone punched me in both of my eyes. The circles are so bad and they were so puffy and now I am crying and i really can hardly open my eyes.
Y'all i cant do this . . .someone help me remember how to smile . . . please