Oct 13/09
HW:250
LW:110
CW:244
HGW:150
LGW: 120/110
Height: 5'11"
Ok, so yesterday I had to get a bunch done around the house - good, because it burns calories. Today, I need to do more. Knees hurt like mad. feels like crushed glass in my kneecaps. Back pain plus numbness and tingling. It sucks. I curse that asshole of an ex boss every day for doing this to me. Mother f***er.
So far today - coffee w/ splash of soymilk - might have fruit later
VERY happy to report that I am down 4 lbs from 3 days ago! Amazing to think I have gained so much damn weight after surgery. Just goes to show what happens if you stop moving and start eating. Would not wish this on anyone. So much self hatred and disgust. I actually used to be a model - I'm ashamed to even see old friends now because i know they would look at me with disgust and wonder how I could get so gross. Don't want to be seen anywhere. Invited to a Halloween party - no thanks. Oh wait - I could be Shrek! That's what I look like. I'm almost 6 feet tall, and when I was thin, the height was awesome. But now, I just look like a huge monster.
LW:110
CW:244
HGW:150
LGW: 120/110
Height: 5'11"
Ok, so yesterday I had to get a bunch done around the house - good, because it burns calories. Today, I need to do more. Knees hurt like mad. feels like crushed glass in my kneecaps. Back pain plus numbness and tingling. It sucks. I curse that asshole of an ex boss every day for doing this to me. Mother f***er.
So far today - coffee w/ splash of soymilk - might have fruit later
VERY happy to report that I am down 4 lbs from 3 days ago! Amazing to think I have gained so much damn weight after surgery. Just goes to show what happens if you stop moving and start eating. Would not wish this on anyone. So much self hatred and disgust. I actually used to be a model - I'm ashamed to even see old friends now because i know they would look at me with disgust and wonder how I could get so gross. Don't want to be seen anywhere. Invited to a Halloween party - no thanks. Oh wait - I could be Shrek! That's what I look like. I'm almost 6 feet tall, and when I was thin, the height was awesome. But now, I just look like a huge monster.