The Day Gone By
The other day C and I went to Toronto for the evening. We parked at the subway and took it downtown.
As we stopped at the station where I lived for so many years, I came to the realization that if I could get up and walk off that train, go to my apartment and walk back into my old life, I would do it.
It's not that I don't love C, and it's not that I am not really happy with the life that I have now. I am content, and I am at peace with the course my life has taken.
I think what I really miss is feeling young and invincible, even though I didn't know that was what I was feeling at the time. It seemed as if if I could just walk back in there I would experience that feeling again.
At least I know that, if I had to do it all over again, I would.
As we stopped at the station where I lived for so many years, I came to the realization that if I could get up and walk off that train, go to my apartment and walk back into my old life, I would do it.
It's not that I don't love C, and it's not that I am not really happy with the life that I have now. I am content, and I am at peace with the course my life has taken.
I think what I really miss is feeling young and invincible, even though I didn't know that was what I was feeling at the time. It seemed as if if I could just walk back in there I would experience that feeling again.
At least I know that, if I had to do it all over again, I would.