One isn't the loneliest number until it meets another one.
I've spent a lot of my life alone--by choice. I enjoy my own company. The silence of no one else around. The time to spend in my own head and the ability to do whatever I wanted. I'm not entirely alone because since I was a kid I've held complete dialogues with myself in my head. There aren't two of me, I just think and talk answering my own questions and cracking myself up at any chance I get. I remember in either 5th or 6th grade I was having one of these moments when I was walking home from school. Teenagers from the highschool saw me while driving by, honked their horn, and yelled something like, "hey, stop talking to yourself, kid!" I hadn't realized it was obvious but since then I've learned to tone down the wild hand gestures and I try not to actually speak. I can't help the laughing out loud because I'm a very funny person. The best I can do is transition into some mock cough and mumble "bronchitis" while I scurry away giggling/coughing some more.
Because I am so comfortable being by myself I will never date anyone seriously solely to fulfill a need just to be with someone for companionship. I am actually quite shocked when I do like someone enough to be around them all the time. Which brings me to the point that I am most shocked (and, to be honest, very disappointed) by...
1. The majority of the most happiest moments in my life have occurred when other people are involved.
2. The most happiest periods in my life are when I'm in love.
FUCK.
Why must other people be involved??! I am super. I like being by myself. Yet I am realizing that the happiness I feel from being in a relationship is far greater and is longer sustained than when I feel it at any other time. Also the times I spend with my friends are some of my greatest memories. Really, what are these revelations going to do for the huge introvert in me? AND having to admit that relationships aren't evil? Oh my. Oh my.
Given the revelations I have made I'm reluctantly going to have to start spending time with more people other than myself. Ugh.
Because I am so comfortable being by myself I will never date anyone seriously solely to fulfill a need just to be with someone for companionship. I am actually quite shocked when I do like someone enough to be around them all the time. Which brings me to the point that I am most shocked (and, to be honest, very disappointed) by...
1. The majority of the most happiest moments in my life have occurred when other people are involved.
2. The most happiest periods in my life are when I'm in love.
FUCK.
Why must other people be involved??! I am super. I like being by myself. Yet I am realizing that the happiness I feel from being in a relationship is far greater and is longer sustained than when I feel it at any other time. Also the times I spend with my friends are some of my greatest memories. Really, what are these revelations going to do for the huge introvert in me? AND having to admit that relationships aren't evil? Oh my. Oh my.
Given the revelations I have made I'm reluctantly going to have to start spending time with more people other than myself. Ugh.