Dec 25, 2007 18:51
Inherently I'm a very honest person. (Side note: I've done some dishonest things that discredit that statement but recently I've even come out about those things. Generally, I don't lie about things because I like to keep everything uncomplicated. I'm very open and will answer most questions about myself.) I like building trust in people and showing them that they can rely on my word. I'm really angered by someone questioning my honesty about texting (yes, texting) when I've given them no reason not to trust me. For some reason my responses weren't getting to him for a couple hours--perhaps today is a day that people are making a lot of phone calls, and he didn't believe that I responded right away. He had to call someone--he didn't try to call me--and rely on them since I wasn't there. When he described how his friend came for him instantaneously I felt he was trying to rub it in my face as if I haven't been there for him and that I am unreliable. For the past month I've tried to help him in anyway I could hoping it would bring some stablility to his world right now. I did it only because I care about him and I'm glad to do it, I just don't want my intregity to be in doubt. I'm an honest person, I will be there, don't question me. He is. These are things that will upset me.
This is probably one-sided. Of course, I'm no doubt lying about all the details.
Tonight I'm upset but it should be resolved tomorrow.