Jul 17, 2004 09:29
christ, i fucking hate men! they make me so damn sick! it's like as soon as i find a guy that i think is half way decent he fucks me over (or just fucks another girl). i try in my relationships, i really do, theres not one person who doesnt know that. i always consider the other person's feelings yet i get screwed over and they think i don't care abt them. when i fall for someone i fall hard. even after it's over no matter how hurt i am a part of me still loves the person very much. i am not the kind of person to declear my love if i don't mean it. i am the loyalest person you will ever meet. even after a guy fucks me over i tell his new love that hes a good guy. i don't know whats wrong w/ me. maybe i don't show it well enough or maybe i just pick the wrong ppl. but no matter how much i love a person after they have done something unforgivable to me i will not take them back under any circomstances! i prob won't even talk to them. b/c no matter how much i love the person i will always love myself more, that is something valuble i have learnt the past few months. ppl will stop loving me for which ever reason, but as long as i don't stop loving myself as corny as it sounds i'll be ok. i am not going to allow myself into situations where i know i will get hurt in the long run. it's funny tho, they all told me to run the hell away from the schizophreia boy.