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[homeissomewhere]

Went to the dermatologist today finally. Turns out I have an outbreak of a stress-induced skin condition that is genetic and will never go away. Lovely. Thank you college process for inducing my red, scaly rash

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[spifficus_rex]

I read something about wanting my help or something. I don't know. I rarely if ever check You Know Who's livejournal, and I don't really know you, at all. I am amused at your post a while ago about hating Brendan, because he's a cocksucker and I'm sure there's a funny story behind it. Although, I do find it a little disgusting that you'd put your lips on him. Personally, I'd rather his lips settled around the cold barrel of a gun. I digress. What's up?

[homeissomewhere]

I always thought you were notified by email if someone sent you a reply. Whatever, screw icons. I have heard countless stories about what a dickhead you are, but considering the source, you could regard that as a compliment. Anyway, don't remind me where my lips have been. I'd rather forget about that.

[spifficus_rex]

Considering the source? One of two people, I assume, and You Know Who doesn't count, becuase if she tried, she could find far more stories about me being sweet, thoughtful and kind.

I still want to hear the Brendan story though.

Also, I'll let you know that I am easily the most talented, ambitious and charmingly unique person you'll ever meet, to say nothing of modesty. I actually feel slightly dissapointed for you that YKW didn't deign to introduce you to me.

[homeissomewhere]

YKW and I didn't really talk about you much. There's no point really, it's something you don't really talk about. As I said, considering the source, you should take the insults as a compliment. Use your imagination.

I don't know what story you refer to, but your sense of humor must be different than mine. The only thing that's funny to me is how some people can't take a hint when they aren't wanted.

Don't blame YNW for not introducing you to me. I could have certainly pushed to make it happen, and I was actually anticipating it before I came, but it was my impression that you can be unnecessarily difficult. Plus, we were also wrapped up in other things. Yes, I know she can be selfish. But we were honestly doing something every minute. Anyway, I really enjoyed spending time out west and I hope to visit again in the near future.

[spifficus_rex]

Let me add, I really want to hear about what Brendan did to you and why you are so mad at him. So, if you want to tell me without being cryptic or vague, that would be cool.

I don't assume you talk about me. I don't care what she says or said about me, because it's probably all true.

I don't blame anyone for not introducing me to anyone. I don't intend this to be insulting, but I was only upset about it because it was the last decision in a series that was leading to her and my complete seperation. When you make a point to introduce an outside friend to all of your buddies and acquantances and fail to include someone as pivotal as me, it sends a message and it was at that point that I realized that her and my friendship was effectively dead. I'm sure you're a nice girl, but that's beside the point.

I was also upset because the two of you were spending time with Brendan, which is always bad because he's a loser and a bad influence. The kind of guy that would take any opportunity to take advantage of someone.

[homeissomewhere]

Look, we were spending time with It because he was our sweet Vegas connection. Mandy continues to use him as a free hotel room, and this you know. He is nothing else to either one of us. I seem to get criticized for cryptic internet comments quite often, only because I assume people will catch my drift. So if I must be blunt, "certain" people who are pathetic and have been rejected but won't let an old thing lie continue to bother poor girls in Bullhead City. That's what I find quite humorous

[spifficus_rex]

Again, I did not feel insulted because I didn't meet you. It was more about vague bullshit between her and I that was examplified in the act of not introducing me, and I was much more concerned with those underlying reasons as opposed to the actual fact. Sorry if I didn't make that clear

[spifficus_rex]

That was me by the way...

[homeissomewhere]

You make me laugh sometimes. I'm not offended by anything; I figured you would be. I'm glad you aren't angry at me

[spifficus_rex]

I know, he presents opportunities for her, and I know that she has no interest in pursuing anything with him. I just wish she'd spare herself the trouble and tell him off, which she's never been able to sufficiently do to anybody but me, sadly. I know her flaws like my own.

I take it that you resent Brendan because he didn't want anything to do with you after you left? Was he just cold to you, or did he say anything to you? I guarantee you that what you saw was his true nature. Brendan is one of the worst people I've ever met.

I will say that I understand your behaviour while visiting here. You're probably shy, thus the inexperience. Being in a new place, where nobody knows who you are, especially with people you'd never see again, I assume it was liberating. You're probably more like Amanda than you realize.

The catch is that you can't let yourself be led by your passions. When you have no external constraints, your control must come from your own strength of will.

[homeissomewhere]

I've told her the same thing; I don't understand the way she deals with this, as if he is a lingering obligation. It would not only be justified to tell him off, it would be the moral thing to do.

I don't regret the decisions I made, nor do I think that I showed little restraint. I am a very consious, aware person, and he put up a solid facade of a senstive, giving individual. If I had seen him clearly, I would have never let him in. Don't get the impression that I have no strength of will, because I have more than most people. Most people would have given up having experienced the things I have, but I keep going. Shy isn't exactly what I would call it, it goes deeper than that. I'm no doe-eyed, vulnerable ignorant creature, especially now. I'm typically prone to cynicism, but being around her changes everything.

I can't go any further in depth with this or the Brendan thing on Livejournal (why the hell are we doing this anyway?) because I don't want it to be on display to the public.

AIM? Email?

[spifficus_rex]

AIM: spiffyprophet

Give me an add and send me a message. I may be afk but I'll send one back when I get to my dorm.

[homeissomewhere]

Si. My AIM is the same as my email.