how old are you again?
OMG i hate apartment-hunting. i hate it so much that instead of doing it today i mopped the floor. i just hate picking a place and dealing with money/budgeting and trying to figure out if i could work around the inconvenience of having to buy a refrigerator and etc.
plus, feeling morally bankrupt and dumb and young and boring as hell. cannot make small talk at parties without coming home and beating myself up for hours afterward about all the stupid things i said which i am sure everyone else forgot about right away...but WHAT IF THEY DIDN'T? and that ellipsis and ensuing panicked all-caps voice in my head is why i did not sleep last night.
i am now going to be an adult and go look at 2 open houses for apartments. i can do this. and then later "don quixote" which is a much better book that i expected it to be from its reputation. old comic novels are wasted on young adults.
plus, feeling morally bankrupt and dumb and young and boring as hell. cannot make small talk at parties without coming home and beating myself up for hours afterward about all the stupid things i said which i am sure everyone else forgot about right away...but WHAT IF THEY DIDN'T? and that ellipsis and ensuing panicked all-caps voice in my head is why i did not sleep last night.
i am now going to be an adult and go look at 2 open houses for apartments. i can do this. and then later "don quixote" which is a much better book that i expected it to be from its reputation. old comic novels are wasted on young adults.