it's sad when you realize something about yourself.

[holymountzion]

so before work yesterday i smoked with chrys three times.
then last night i had two massive bowls after work.
again, with chrys.

when i woke up this morning i had another two huge ones with chrys.
and i didn't realize until now that i'm a huge stoner.
but whatever.
it's my life.
and it's not effecting my work at all.

i wore makeup today.
neymi said that she never realized how heavy my eyeshadow was until she saw me without makeup those past three days.
and yes it was refreshing.
but i like the way i look with eyeshadow better than without.
but don't get me wrong, i like the way i look without makeup too.

so yeah.
i love chrys.
she's so good to me.