Super Junior; Donghae; Heart
Title: Heart
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Donghae!centric
Word Count: 514 (short!)
Rating: G
Summary: a look into Donghae...i guess?
Genre: fluff
A/N: it hurst to post this. the sap. its all over the place. but i really need to post. i really havent in so long. idk what happened this just kinda blobbed out of me. I was like "im going to write something!" >:T and then THIS sappy piece of shaz appeared on the paper and i was like "....eh. I'll take it". Hey, its something. after a month of not writing anything fic-like or worthwhile, anything is better than nothing. My writing. where has it gone? :T (<-- new favorite face btw)
**dedicated to twinkie86 because she gets it 8D ♥~
Donghae loves a lot.
It’s what he’s known for, really. Sure, he’s known for being what the members call “spacey”, and for the way he always tends to jump a little higher than the rest in the dances, kind of like a fish. It is his nickname, after all. But even though all the members call him silly names to fit his silly smile, and tell silly stories about his silly questions, the conversation always comes back around to how much Donghae loves. Because that’s what he does best.
Sometimes, he loves too hard, too much. When it comes to family, there’s no question. Of course, that's the way it’s supposed to be. Still, it just makes it harder when one of them leaves. It just makes it that much harder to stop crying.
Sometimes, he doesn't.
Donghae knows he’s not the brightest bulb on the planet. He’s not dumb, he’s just not all the way there, not all the time. It’s because he’s given away so much of himself to other people. He gives away bits and pieces, chips of his heart to those he cares about and even those he doesn't, because he figures they probably need a little bit every now and then, too. Someone has to care for them. The details don’t really matter to Donghae; he gives and he loves. That’s just what he does.
When Donghae smiles, it’s the window to his heart. Not his eyes, even though those are pretty close, too. It’s in his smile. There are the camera smiles that he brings out only once in awhile, most of the time when he’s thinking about him and he doesn't really feel like smiling any more, doesn't really feel like pretending today. But he knows better than to bring it out too many times; he has a hard time faking it anyway. The smile he gives most though are his fan smiles. Those are the smiles that say ‘hi, I know you’re out there, and I just want to say I love you too’. Every one of those are sincere. Hardly any of his smiles aren’t. And then there are the smiles when he’s happy, excited, or when he just wants to laugh. But that’s most of the time anyway.
But the best smiles are the rarest ones. The ones that say the most. Those smiles are the ones that shine, not from the surface but from the heart. Those are the smiles that scream ‘I love you’. He doesn’t even have to say it, although the only people who get to see that kind of smile are the ones he says it to the most.
I love you.
They already know.
All 12 of them. (And now all 14).
Donghae loves a lot. It’s what he does. The best part about it, though, is that even while the others know, have always known, they get to hear it everyday, see it everyday, feel it everyday.
And everyday, Kyuhyun smiles just a little bit back because the person he wants to be like most is Donghae.
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started: 8:15 pm; 12.18.08
finished: 8:40 pm; 12.18.08
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Donghae!centric
Word Count: 514 (short!)
Rating: G
Summary: a look into Donghae...i guess?
Genre: fluff
A/N: it hurst to post this. the sap. its all over the place. but i really need to post. i really havent in so long. idk what happened this just kinda blobbed out of me. I was like "im going to write something!" >:T and then THIS sappy piece of shaz appeared on the paper and i was like "....eh. I'll take it". Hey, its something. after a month of not writing anything fic-like or worthwhile, anything is better than nothing. My writing. where has it gone? :T (<-- new favorite face btw)
**dedicated to twinkie86 because she gets it 8D ♥~
Donghae loves a lot.
It’s what he’s known for, really. Sure, he’s known for being what the members call “spacey”, and for the way he always tends to jump a little higher than the rest in the dances, kind of like a fish. It is his nickname, after all. But even though all the members call him silly names to fit his silly smile, and tell silly stories about his silly questions, the conversation always comes back around to how much Donghae loves. Because that’s what he does best.
Sometimes, he loves too hard, too much. When it comes to family, there’s no question. Of course, that's the way it’s supposed to be. Still, it just makes it harder when one of them leaves. It just makes it that much harder to stop crying.
Sometimes, he doesn't.
Donghae knows he’s not the brightest bulb on the planet. He’s not dumb, he’s just not all the way there, not all the time. It’s because he’s given away so much of himself to other people. He gives away bits and pieces, chips of his heart to those he cares about and even those he doesn't, because he figures they probably need a little bit every now and then, too. Someone has to care for them. The details don’t really matter to Donghae; he gives and he loves. That’s just what he does.
When Donghae smiles, it’s the window to his heart. Not his eyes, even though those are pretty close, too. It’s in his smile. There are the camera smiles that he brings out only once in awhile, most of the time when he’s thinking about him and he doesn't really feel like smiling any more, doesn't really feel like pretending today. But he knows better than to bring it out too many times; he has a hard time faking it anyway. The smile he gives most though are his fan smiles. Those are the smiles that say ‘hi, I know you’re out there, and I just want to say I love you too’. Every one of those are sincere. Hardly any of his smiles aren’t. And then there are the smiles when he’s happy, excited, or when he just wants to laugh. But that’s most of the time anyway.
But the best smiles are the rarest ones. The ones that say the most. Those smiles are the ones that shine, not from the surface but from the heart. Those are the smiles that scream ‘I love you’. He doesn’t even have to say it, although the only people who get to see that kind of smile are the ones he says it to the most.
I love you.
They already know.
All 12 of them. (And now all 14).
Donghae loves a lot. It’s what he does. The best part about it, though, is that even while the others know, have always known, they get to hear it everyday, see it everyday, feel it everyday.
And everyday, Kyuhyun smiles just a little bit back because the person he wants to be like most is Donghae.
***
started: 8:15 pm; 12.18.08
finished: 8:40 pm; 12.18.08