lost to mankind
well john and i seem to be doing better, i seem to think so at times but other times i feel like im not on his mind at all, and i can alomost bet anything that im not on his mind....like tonight he went out to eat with a friends b/c he needed to talk, john invited me and samantha forgeting he had to talk, well he called back and said they would talk then he would call me and we could meet him there...that was at 6:30 and its 10:30 and no call, i know for a fact he isnt with that friend anymore and both cells are dead so its not like i could call but he knows my number by heart why cant he call my cell i just dont get it. yet when i talk to him its like everything is better than it was before...i dont no....finshed my first semester of college and im so happy to be out of school, i have work bright and early tom., another day for people to ask what happened or didnt happen between me and john..ugh i should just have a huge get together and tell everyone all at once. we have been broken up for a week and i have had to explan it at least 5 times a day everyday to people...how can you move past something if its always in your face? well im going to bed, i need rest for my first day of work in like 3 months lol then a hot date! ugh my life is like that ridiculous soap opera "Passions" lol sweetdreams