*angst*
*Sometimes, I feel really fucking alone down here.
*Yes, I have Nacho, but I need to feel loved and needed by someone other than my family.
*I am constantly going through my past and wondering how I got here, and what I could have done to fix it. And then I realize that these are all mistakes that I'm going to live with for the rest of my life, and that just worsens the feeling.
*Everyone my age down here lives to drink, and school/work is just an afterthought. If that's not true, it sure feels and looks that way a lot of the time, and I feel like I'm moving past that point in my life, and none of my friends have decided to do the same.
*I'm stuck here until I can get a better job, but without the proper experience in the field (at least 3 years), there's no hope of moving up.
*These are all just bits and thoughts. I like this style of writing, for now.
*Paul Simon's Graceland is one of the few things that keeps me going through the day.
*I look at the fact that I haven't had a solid relationship since I was in High School and that worries me. And don't feed me that "You just haven't found the right person" crap, because I've heard enough of it, and looked and looked, and just haven't found anyone who seems to show any interest.
*I haven't felt this way in a long time, and I hate it. Absolutely abhor it. But my stunted imagination keeps me from coming up with any way to fix it.
*I'm pretty sure I hate all of the engineers at my workplace. Racist Right-wing Fucks.
*Musicians are flakes.
*I miss my family.
*I miss life.
*Yes, I have Nacho, but I need to feel loved and needed by someone other than my family.
*I am constantly going through my past and wondering how I got here, and what I could have done to fix it. And then I realize that these are all mistakes that I'm going to live with for the rest of my life, and that just worsens the feeling.
*Everyone my age down here lives to drink, and school/work is just an afterthought. If that's not true, it sure feels and looks that way a lot of the time, and I feel like I'm moving past that point in my life, and none of my friends have decided to do the same.
*I'm stuck here until I can get a better job, but without the proper experience in the field (at least 3 years), there's no hope of moving up.
*These are all just bits and thoughts. I like this style of writing, for now.
*Paul Simon's Graceland is one of the few things that keeps me going through the day.
*I look at the fact that I haven't had a solid relationship since I was in High School and that worries me. And don't feed me that "You just haven't found the right person" crap, because I've heard enough of it, and looked and looked, and just haven't found anyone who seems to show any interest.
*I haven't felt this way in a long time, and I hate it. Absolutely abhor it. But my stunted imagination keeps me from coming up with any way to fix it.
*I'm pretty sure I hate all of the engineers at my workplace. Racist Right-wing Fucks.
*Musicians are flakes.
*I miss my family.
*I miss life.