"Yeah, well..."
Controlling your own emotions is hard. There is no "appropriate" time to try and balance the playing field after an audition. I just have to stand there and let peoples comments pick at me - I respond by smiling and going on with the conversation. Has anyone else been in this situation? I feel like there's no one I can talk to about it, no one else really cares, no one really wants to listen to me cause I didn't make it.
"He's apparently really, really good"
-"well, not any better than everyone that tried out"
"uh huh..."
or
-"I didn't really go into this doing my best or showing much maturity"
"yeah... He is really good"
-"yeah"
They haven't experienced or observed the same things I have in my life. They don't understand the things i do, from even a similar perspective. I feel so confined. All I can do it type it here. In fact, I bet many of you started reading this post and thought, "Wow, Chris is still writing about it". So it's not like a movie that I really hated, "but it's really, really good". I don't care. My opinion still counts.
It's like all-state: even though you got first chair trumpet in orchestra doens't mean there isn't someone out there that could possibly be at the same level, one that just didn't try out or bombed one part of the tape.
"He's apparently really, really good"
-"well, not any better than everyone that tried out"
"uh huh..."
or
-"I didn't really go into this doing my best or showing much maturity"
"yeah... He is really good"
-"yeah"
They haven't experienced or observed the same things I have in my life. They don't understand the things i do, from even a similar perspective. I feel so confined. All I can do it type it here. In fact, I bet many of you started reading this post and thought, "Wow, Chris is still writing about it". So it's not like a movie that I really hated, "but it's really, really good". I don't care. My opinion still counts.
It's like all-state: even though you got first chair trumpet in orchestra doens't mean there isn't someone out there that could possibly be at the same level, one that just didn't try out or bombed one part of the tape.