I'll get there...

[holycaribou]

Sleeping is good. I slept on my thoughts and finally accept everything. I know I aced my audition, but I could have done my interview so much better. I didn't show much maturity at all, which is a key trait in any leadership position. This school year has really opened my eyes and I've become a lot more accepting of things and much more laid-back, too much so (at this point) to be in leadership. It really sucks that people with sticks up their asses do better in things like this, but in the grand scheme of things, I guess it'll work out on it's own. Another disadvantage I have is that I really haven't worked with any of the professors that much and those three have. I haven't had the oportunity to show them that I really can be a manager (and a damn good one at that).

Goo Goo Dolls', "Sympathy", is now my favorite song of all time. It got me thinking about all the dreams I have that really are coming true; I'm music ed major, I have many good friends, and I'm on the road to becomming more independent. It's not that tragic if I don't get a leadership position. I'm not going to lose my sanity or grab my ankles to get it, but I'll get there eventually.

Edit: select lyrics

And I wished for things that I don't need
(All I wanted)
And what I chased won't set me free
(All I wanted)
And I get scared but I'm not crawlin' on my knees

We're taught to lead the life you choose
(All I wanted)
You know your love's run out on you
(All I wanted)
And you can't see when all your dreams aren't coming true

Oh, yeah
It's easy to forget, yeah
When you choke on the regrets, yeah
Who the hell did I think I was?