mr. aza and one year anniversary :)
so tonight was mr. aza, and mr. aza always really signified the "last event" for seniors in my opinion. i mean, convention we all cry and say it's the end etc etc, but then we all know that after just enough time to recover and take a breather from bbyo, mr. aza rolls around. and everyone is back, and the love from convention is still there, and the show is hilarious, and it's good times all around again. and then after that, there's lives... which isn't like an event at all... it's just... lives. and then... that's it. so now bbyo really does feel over for me
and i know i shouldn't think this way because there's still the isf dance, and lives, and beach day (if steven's keeping it? who knows what he's doing w/ the schedule for next year)- it just really did feel hard to leave tonight. and it felt hard to watch the new regional board lead havdallah services and the bbg songs. and though our 26th term board was up there judging and talking and laughing like we used to (except that lauren wasn't up there with us! :( ), as soon as the contest ended it went back to us being our seperate selves in our own cliques and everything- just like normal life.
i don't even know what i'm ranting about anymore. i guess i've just got these conflicting feelings of 'it's the end' and 'it isn't- there's still more- don't let yourself feel this way!'
we'll see, we'll see
in other news, today is my one year anniversary with david. which means it's been one year since last convention, one year since i was installed on regional board. oh lord here i go again...
and i know i shouldn't think this way because there's still the isf dance, and lives, and beach day (if steven's keeping it? who knows what he's doing w/ the schedule for next year)- it just really did feel hard to leave tonight. and it felt hard to watch the new regional board lead havdallah services and the bbg songs. and though our 26th term board was up there judging and talking and laughing like we used to (except that lauren wasn't up there with us! :( ), as soon as the contest ended it went back to us being our seperate selves in our own cliques and everything- just like normal life.
i don't even know what i'm ranting about anymore. i guess i've just got these conflicting feelings of 'it's the end' and 'it isn't- there's still more- don't let yourself feel this way!'
we'll see, we'll see
in other news, today is my one year anniversary with david. which means it's been one year since last convention, one year since i was installed on regional board. oh lord here i go again...