3:14am
There’s a dull throbbing pain in my head. I think it’s due to stress, nerves, anxiety, and being overwhelmed. There’s so many things going through my head. I’m thinking: “I gotta do this, I have to do that.” And then I also am worrying about the night of my debut. Will I trip over wires? Drop equipment? Blow out the fucking sound system? There’s so many horrible scenarios playing in my head… Will people dig the music I play?
And then I still have to figure out my outfit and make-up…. Fuuuuck man. I just want to relax and forget about all these worries. Even my dreams lately have been anxiety dreams.
I just have to take a deep breathe, and remember, that things aren’t going to be as bad as they seem. And that there’s always alcohol to help take the edge off. FUCK IT.