Let me ask you
Do you think that love is something that you have to constantly work at maintaining? Or should it be completely effortless?
Does everyone really deserve to be loved? I mean, maybe this is my punishment for all the bad things I have done/ will do in my life. Orrr; do you think that the constant torture I put myself through is because of some uncovered self/emotional mutilation disorder.. Do you think that I choose the guys who are going to chew me up and spit me out subconsciously?
Why am I so sad lately? Why can't I just go back to being me. The Holly that I like to be? I know that really it must mean that I don't want to be, but really I do. I guess I have just gotten lazy, and I miss doing things for a purpose instead of just doing them just because.
I have NO PURPOSE.
Does everyone really deserve to be loved? I mean, maybe this is my punishment for all the bad things I have done/ will do in my life. Orrr; do you think that the constant torture I put myself through is because of some uncovered self/emotional mutilation disorder.. Do you think that I choose the guys who are going to chew me up and spit me out subconsciously?
Why am I so sad lately? Why can't I just go back to being me. The Holly that I like to be? I know that really it must mean that I don't want to be, but really I do. I guess I have just gotten lazy, and I miss doing things for a purpose instead of just doing them just because.
I have NO PURPOSE.