How much longer until I say enough is enough?

[hollymarie23]

Last night Jess and I had a horrible fight. I ended up leaving the house and I went to school to do my homework. We resolved the problem over the phone and decided that I should go home. So I finished up my work and went home. As soon as I got there we started fighting again. Can we not go like five minutes without fighting? Apparently not. So I get inside and she's being an ass and she said that if all I was going to do was fight with her that I should have never come home. So I start to get my stuff to go sleep in the spare bedroom and she wouldn't even let me in the damn room to get my things and I started crying. So she comes out (still being an ass) and tells me to leave, so I get my stuff to leave and I'm headed out the door when she gets in my way. Then she starts going on about how we are going to talk and I don't want to talk, I just want to get out of there. But she's getting even more and more violent and she threw my school binder and all my papers flew everywhere and I went to pick them up and she just knocked it out of my hand again. Then while I was picking up all of my stuff (again) she took my purse and put it somewhere and I couldn't find it. All the while she was telling me she wasn't going to stop unless I talked to her. I kept telling her no because there was nothing to talk about. She said we were through and that I fucked up and lost her for good, and that's okay with me you know? So why couldn't she just let me leave? But anyway, she wouldn't let me stay in the house, so I sat in my car in the driveway and cried and then finally I fell asleep. It was the worst night's worth of sleep I've ever gotten. I got up at 5:30am to go inside so that I could shower and come to school. What a shitty night.

I have no idea what will happen today. Will she let me come home? Will we fight again? Will she not even speak to me? I have no idea. All I know is that I'm so tired, drained and becoming very apathetic about it all.