Text received yesterday at 10:39 PM
"Hey I hope you are doing well. You don't have to talk to me but I wanted to say I was sorry for everything. I know I've been a pain along the way. Again, you don't need to respond. I just want you to know that and there are no hard feelings from me"
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One of the best aspects of sobriety are the boundaries I gave myself. They protect me. My mom is no longer in my life. This guy too. In the past, when I drank, I probably would have responded to this. One of the many gifts of sobriety is perspective, unselfishness and self love. "No hard feelings" is a crock of shit. This guy disrespected almost every relationship I ever had. It was my fault, but letting this back into my life would be irresponsible and selfish. My life is stable, healthy and happy. Life is good.
I just have to remind myself of how bad it was sometimes. Re-living the past is so dark but it gave me a brighter future. Forward and up.
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One of the best aspects of sobriety are the boundaries I gave myself. They protect me. My mom is no longer in my life. This guy too. In the past, when I drank, I probably would have responded to this. One of the many gifts of sobriety is perspective, unselfishness and self love. "No hard feelings" is a crock of shit. This guy disrespected almost every relationship I ever had. It was my fault, but letting this back into my life would be irresponsible and selfish. My life is stable, healthy and happy. Life is good.
I just have to remind myself of how bad it was sometimes. Re-living the past is so dark but it gave me a brighter future. Forward and up.