(insert clever title that sums up what i just wrote here)
well, well. been a long time, no? for a while there we were sans internet. now we have dial-up again. yay!, in the way that's not. this shit's slow as hell, i tell ya. i guess i was just spoiled for a while there.... i've also been working a lot lately, up until the last week or two. now i'm only getting like 40 hours. i miss all that overtime i was getting.... my manager even said that for one of the pay periods i had the most hours that he's ever called into payrool before. i broke a record or something. yay for me? so, what have i been up to? not all thst much really. in some ways, things are better. and in some ways worse. i've given up the pot, the whacky tobaccy, if you will. well, it's only been a week. but, i'm really committed this time. seriously. more so than all those other times i "quit". time to finally get out of the stoned age i thought. not to say that on special occasions i can't partake. but not for a good long while of soberness first. it kind of feels good actually. i noticed this for the first time today. i realized that i'm happy about quitting. i can't believe that i wasted a good almost two years in that haze. and i haven't even resorted to heavy drinking or anything as a subsitute. though a beer does sound good right about now. hmm.... ah, nothing like a beer and a cigarette. anyway, work's been okay lately. i was getting really sick of that place for a while there. i still need to get another job soon though. something with benefits would be nice. ooh, and more money. which brings me to the bad. my sister just moved out this month. which means i need to pay half the rent. i need to buy car insurance and re-register my car. and try to come up with some extra money this month. because i need to come up with some deposit money cause it's looking kinda likely that i'll be moving in with some friends (or just one...that part's still sketchy) next month. and so far it's looking pretty unlikely that i can come up with all that money. i might have to start selling crack...or my body. any takers?! i also wanted to buy a ticket for bowie which goes on sale this sunday. oh, and i still need to buy a ticket for a perfect circle. and the yeah yeah yeahs. damn. i'm starting to run out of cd's and dvd's i wanna sell too. i have like a thousand cd's...but i want them all. argh. the other thing about moving out is my mom is trying to put this whole guilt trip on me about my sister abandoning her and now me. it's fucking shit because i need to get out on my own. and it's not my fault she dug herself into this hole. i really don't know what to do about all that. either i piss her off...like a lot. or i get dragged down with her depper (edit: what the fuck's a depper? an obsessive johnny depp fan?) and deeper into debt. it wicked sucks. i don't know, but things are definitely changing. some of it will be bad, yeah, but i still like it. i've needed fucking change for so long. and i noticed i'm saying fuck a lot. fuck. i miss all you guys. i really do. sorry i haven't been around at all in, like, forever. i'm a bitch, i know. forgive me? i also haven't been able to read up on anyone's lj in a long time. so i'm very muchly out of the loop. if anyone wants to fill me in on what's up with them, feel free. i can't exactly catch up at this point, but i suppose i should end this novel that i'm writing and at least see what's been going on recently. so yeah, that's it. over. finito...or something.