Okay, I'm offically messed up...
I decided to walk home from work today. I have no idea why. I was heading to my car, keys in hand, ready to go home, when this voice in my head just says "Walk, you have the time" and so I just left my car and started walking. It really did help though, it allowed me to think about some things in a kind of working meditation kind of way.
My emotions were all over the place today, with the relief of finals, I called up Rose only to find out her mom's dying of cancer, ouch. For some odd reason, work sucked far more than ususal. I meqan, call volume wasn't so bad, and i didn't have any particularly annoying calls, but for some reason, the same crap that people call in with was REALLY getting to me. I was dangerously close to just cussing out anyone who called in, and was really on edge with my coworkers too.
The walk did help, as much as it could, anyway. I still have a lot of unansweared questions, like "Where did I go wrong?" "Do I really want to stay here?" "Is it better to fight for what I know I can't have, or settle for what I may not want?"
Gah, I got to go walk some more
Oh yeah, one more thing. Emily and I are planning a road trip to Omaha the week after next. It's gonna be crazy reoginizing my schedule for that, but Em is one of only 3 women in existance who can say "Shawn, I would like you to do this" and I do it, Damn the consenquences.
My emotions were all over the place today, with the relief of finals, I called up Rose only to find out her mom's dying of cancer, ouch. For some odd reason, work sucked far more than ususal. I meqan, call volume wasn't so bad, and i didn't have any particularly annoying calls, but for some reason, the same crap that people call in with was REALLY getting to me. I was dangerously close to just cussing out anyone who called in, and was really on edge with my coworkers too.
The walk did help, as much as it could, anyway. I still have a lot of unansweared questions, like "Where did I go wrong?" "Do I really want to stay here?" "Is it better to fight for what I know I can't have, or settle for what I may not want?"
Gah, I got to go walk some more
Oh yeah, one more thing. Emily and I are planning a road trip to Omaha the week after next. It's gonna be crazy reoginizing my schedule for that, but Em is one of only 3 women in existance who can say "Shawn, I would like you to do this" and I do it, Damn the consenquences.