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Hey well i did it i asked and the answer i got was... I dont know.. i dont think i am ready for a relationship... yeah that is like my life story.. having guys tell me no the easy way.. grr.. why cant they just say no i dont like you i find you hideous? and discusting.. isnt that easier i mean if you tell me that then i wont even try to be your friend... So if you just tell me i will leave you alone... i dont know if it is that way with him.. but i dunno it could be.. but i hope not b/c i really really really like this guy.. But it doesnt matter.. what matters is if he likes me.. i dunno.. its so confusing.. it really really sucks... but hey maybe just maybe someday i will find someone like i used to have that loves me for me and wants to be with me and never wants to let me go.. and doesnt cheat on me... almost like phylicia has with dean.. its so adorable.. i want to be in love again.. Well i am going to go now.. ttyl byebye.