Who can you really depend on??
Well a lot has been going on lately, I've had so much on my mind. Where do I even start?
Alright well tonight I met up with Krista, Shelby, Thelma, and Kerry at Panera for dinner. Afterwards, we went to Paxon for the soccer game and then basketball game against Stanton. It was a lot of fun. Shelby and I got the chance to talk about some stuff, we've agreed it's time for a Holley-Shelby day. :)
Hmm ... I'm not sure what's been going on lately, if it's just me, or what? But lately... I have just been really frustrated with people!! It seems like everybody at once. I came home tonight and like poured my heart out to my mom about everything. I just feel so angry, I think talking about it makes it worse. Sometimes it's really hard to figure out people's real intentions. You might think you know them ... and then they let you down. It is really hard to talk to people about how you feel, either they avoid confrontation or I just have trouble getting my feelings across. I don't know what to do? I mean what can you do? People make their own minds up about things and you can't change it for them. I have my friends figured out sooo well, I can always tell exactly what they're thinking, and a lot of the time its unnecessary. It's weird how even though you can be the best of friends ... it seems as though things can turn into a competition ... and I really never thought of it like that because it doesn't seem like friends wouldn't do that, but apparently it is like that? I mean what other explanation is there? I'm not saying that I don't understand... I mean I guess I can't until I'm in the situation, but I'm sure I'd be feeling the same way, but there are different ways of handling it, and I hope I would be able to handle it better if I were in that situation, I don't know? It's just so frustrating ... because one minute everything is great and then all of the sudden you're such a horrible person? I mean that's exaggerated ... but that's how I see it. I'm at a loss of words .... that's just a lot of my thoughts I needed to get out, I know it makes absolutely no sense, but it's not meant to.
Now on another note ... what's the deal w/ guys? Why are they such assholes? I mean I know I can be a bitch sometimes ... but I wouldn't be if they didn't sink me to that level! It's ridiculous. I'm not even going to get into that ... I'm so fed up with it. Why am I even worrying about it? He doesn't!
Im done with all this shit ... Highschool is so overrated and people are such a joke. I am probably just saying this because I'm angry and everything will be fine tomorrow ... but that's the whole point of me getting out my frustrations!
Alright well tonight I met up with Krista, Shelby, Thelma, and Kerry at Panera for dinner. Afterwards, we went to Paxon for the soccer game and then basketball game against Stanton. It was a lot of fun. Shelby and I got the chance to talk about some stuff, we've agreed it's time for a Holley-Shelby day. :)
Hmm ... I'm not sure what's been going on lately, if it's just me, or what? But lately... I have just been really frustrated with people!! It seems like everybody at once. I came home tonight and like poured my heart out to my mom about everything. I just feel so angry, I think talking about it makes it worse. Sometimes it's really hard to figure out people's real intentions. You might think you know them ... and then they let you down. It is really hard to talk to people about how you feel, either they avoid confrontation or I just have trouble getting my feelings across. I don't know what to do? I mean what can you do? People make their own minds up about things and you can't change it for them. I have my friends figured out sooo well, I can always tell exactly what they're thinking, and a lot of the time its unnecessary. It's weird how even though you can be the best of friends ... it seems as though things can turn into a competition ... and I really never thought of it like that because it doesn't seem like friends wouldn't do that, but apparently it is like that? I mean what other explanation is there? I'm not saying that I don't understand... I mean I guess I can't until I'm in the situation, but I'm sure I'd be feeling the same way, but there are different ways of handling it, and I hope I would be able to handle it better if I were in that situation, I don't know? It's just so frustrating ... because one minute everything is great and then all of the sudden you're such a horrible person? I mean that's exaggerated ... but that's how I see it. I'm at a loss of words .... that's just a lot of my thoughts I needed to get out, I know it makes absolutely no sense, but it's not meant to.
Now on another note ... what's the deal w/ guys? Why are they such assholes? I mean I know I can be a bitch sometimes ... but I wouldn't be if they didn't sink me to that level! It's ridiculous. I'm not even going to get into that ... I'm so fed up with it. Why am I even worrying about it? He doesn't!
Im done with all this shit ... Highschool is so overrated and people are such a joke. I am probably just saying this because I'm angry and everything will be fine tomorrow ... but that's the whole point of me getting out my frustrations!