wayyy to fucking early.

[holdxurxbreath]

I got up at 7:30, with maybe 5 & a half hourse
of sleep tops this morning.

drove my mom to work @ 7:45, then got
a few things that we needed for home.

the past 2 days have been kinda blehhh
for me. I dont know why either. I know whats
bothering me, but it shouldnt, I dont think?

I finally got to see my g-pa yesterday.
it was good & bad. my g-ma couldnt
not stop crying for more than 2 minutes.

that hurt the most. watching her cry
as all she can do is watch my g-pa die.

I gave her a hug, she wasnt hesitant this
time. and all she said over and over is
"he's dying, he's dying"

I miss having someone to talk to.
I know it sounds bad, but just, now
a days I dont feel like there is anyone
I can really talk to and be comfortable 
with, if you will. since Ive been a little
more emotional than normal, heh.

I guess thats why Im updating in here
every so often.

Rae comes home tommorow. thank god.
we've both not been at our best, and what
better way to be then like 981237928179812
miles apart when we need eachother.life.

well Im off to get an early start on helping
finish the kitchen. working before work, how
nice?

peace.