bad dream
I dreamt that I went to your house on new years eve.
why that day. I do not know.
I fell asleep in your bed. and your brother woke me up
the next morning.
Your t.v wasnt in your room, and I looked for my picture,
but it was nowere to be seen.
I woke up to the sound of you bringing the t.v back into
your room. and you saw me there asleep. but I had been
up for a bit, so I was only faking it. hoping youd be happy
to see me.
You said something, what it was I couldnt make out, but
I know it wasnt happy.
I finally crawled out of bed, to see you in your brothers room
watching t.v.
I went for the phone, to call home to get picked up, but no
matter how hard I tried I couldnt dial my number right.
Your brother offered me a ride home, but I told him Id walk.
Some how you crept to the living room, and I came and lied
next to you on the couch you were on.
You were mad at me for being there, and you told me that
you really had never wanted to see me ever again, and
that you hated me.
I started to cry, and then you told me it was all really
because you were bipolar. and then you put your arm around me.
I Iooked into your eyes. your pupils were as small as pinholes.
then I woke up. with the two tears I had shed in that dream.
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Just got done having my morning ciggarette.
Its nice outside, but it wont stay that way for long.
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Im doing okay now, knowing it was just a dream.
I recolected myself, and here I am.
A little scared that the feelings you reflected in the
dream could possibly be real. but I should think
to know you better.
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I cant lie when I say that this past week has gone by so slow.
Days seem to take forever to start and end, as they drag on
one by one.
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I have been doing fiarly well though.
just know that I am slowly getting better at understanding,
come on you know me. Im pretty good at at least trying
to understand.
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still know.
that I am waiting.
because I want too.
because I need too.
because things that matter.
no.
that mean the world to you.
need not to be rushed.
why that day. I do not know.
I fell asleep in your bed. and your brother woke me up
the next morning.
Your t.v wasnt in your room, and I looked for my picture,
but it was nowere to be seen.
I woke up to the sound of you bringing the t.v back into
your room. and you saw me there asleep. but I had been
up for a bit, so I was only faking it. hoping youd be happy
to see me.
You said something, what it was I couldnt make out, but
I know it wasnt happy.
I finally crawled out of bed, to see you in your brothers room
watching t.v.
I went for the phone, to call home to get picked up, but no
matter how hard I tried I couldnt dial my number right.
Your brother offered me a ride home, but I told him Id walk.
Some how you crept to the living room, and I came and lied
next to you on the couch you were on.
You were mad at me for being there, and you told me that
you really had never wanted to see me ever again, and
that you hated me.
I started to cry, and then you told me it was all really
because you were bipolar. and then you put your arm around me.
I Iooked into your eyes. your pupils were as small as pinholes.
then I woke up. with the two tears I had shed in that dream.
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Just got done having my morning ciggarette.
Its nice outside, but it wont stay that way for long.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Im doing okay now, knowing it was just a dream.
I recolected myself, and here I am.
A little scared that the feelings you reflected in the
dream could possibly be real. but I should think
to know you better.
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I cant lie when I say that this past week has gone by so slow.
Days seem to take forever to start and end, as they drag on
one by one.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I have been doing fiarly well though.
just know that I am slowly getting better at understanding,
come on you know me. Im pretty good at at least trying
to understand.
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still know.
that I am waiting.
because I want too.
because I need too.
because things that matter.
no.
that mean the world to you.
need not to be rushed.