to be continued...

[holdxurxbreath]

There are so many things going through my head.

the biggest one is why did I get up so effin early?

I had a bit of a sleepless night, it happens.
I attempted sleep several times, but couldnt.

I work 5-close, so I have some time to do things
for me today. Just a few things at that.

I'd like to just start ranting about how Im really
feeling. But I know I shouldnt.

I need someone to talk to.

Two people in deffinate to be exact.

I hope I see them today.

Have you ever have a million questions go
through your head, but not one could
be answered?

that was me this morning.

I fear I wont rest easy until they are answered.

Theres so much I want to say, so much I need to say,
but wont, so nothing comes out wrong or is taken wrong.

I shouldnt speak, but I cant seem to stop typing.

pauses.yawns.stares.

I do think Im taking myself quite well though. This is not new to me.
Im at this time, were I wish I could just fast forward, to see my future.
and at the same time. rewind. pausing at my favorite parts. just to hit start again.

My eyes arent as heavy, but they do wish to rest. yet I have the hardest time closing them
when I cant stop thinking about the same mad thoughts and questions.

well here it comes.

sleep becons me again.

I think to give it a try?