I dont even know were to begin...
I am messed up.
Im not going to put myself down more than I need to.
Just to let everyone or anyone know, prom was good,
besides some issues that only certain people know about
and need to know about, the night was great. I was happy
I went with bart, I wanted no one else to be there with me
except for him, and Rae of course, but she wasnt my date lol.
Well, its just been a bit of a day for me so far. The bf needs
some "him time", and I just kinda really freaked out that he needed
his own space. And Im really mad at myself about it. He can do anything and everything for me, and when he needs this one thing, just this day to himself alone, like, something he just REALLY needs
or needed, I was having the hardest time doing that for him.
I just. Ive gotten so use to seeing him everyday, because I want to.
At first it seemed like a bad habbit if you will. or just, w.e you want to call it. But now I see that I want to see him everyday because I honestly cant get sick of himj. Even if I only get to see him for 5 minutes its better than nothing.
If he reads any of this.
I hope he takes what I say all the right way.
I just, I cant say or do or think all the right things, at the right time. I have a hard time having to think about things. Like I can think, but I am horribly impatients with me and others sometimes.
All he thinks sometimes is that he hurts me, and that all he does is causes me pain, and that I would be better off without him. And in consequence, I think the same thing.
We are a lot alike .
Whether or not he see's it. I
do.
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-We both get stuborn.
-We both yell and get mad.
-We both have walked away from things, even eachother.
-We both can make eachother cry.
-We both can say shit we either dont mean, or just,
its now what we wanted to say.
-We both like dinosaurs.
-We both make eachother laugh.
-We both make the silliest of faces.
-We both love to cuddle and hold hands.
-We both like to smoke...for now...lol.
-We both like to dance silly.
-We both get jealous, even if it is for
silly or "stupid" reasons.
-We both get paranoid.
-We both like to sing out loud
-We both love coconut.
-We both, well me now, LOVE mayo.
-We both love driving withthe windows down, and the system up.
-We both can fart and burp in front of eachother.
-We both love to talk, and help people, and be true blue friends.
-We both love fall and winter, and hate the summer for the same
reasons.
-We both can listen to techno and screamy music.
-We both can type a lot, cause we have a lot to say.
-We both think black is the greatest color ever, even though its really a shade.
-We both make the cutest faces when we zone.
-We both kiss the car roof under a yellow light.
-We both can be imature, and yet, one of the wisest, or most down to earth people we know to eachother.
the list could go on, but this is what I got for now.
I love this boy to death. He is the only one who can make me feel the way I do when Im with him.
-He makes me feel loved, and allows me to love him.
-He makes me feel comfortable to be myself around.
-He does for me what he humanly possibly can to make me happy.
-He makes makes me feel confident/comfortable with my body.
-He is so thoughtful to me, sometimes its rediculous.
-He loves me for who I am.
-He makes me see the best in me, when I can show it.
-He loves to see me as much as I love to see him.
-He thinks about me as much, maybe even more, than I do sometimes.
-He is this amazing person that he cannot see. No matter the baggage he may carry.
-He means so much to me. Sometimes I dont think I show it enough.
for anyone who reads this, and thinks Im obsessed or just. w.e.
you cant really understand why I feel this way, or see why Im
making him, and us such a big deal, and Im happy for it. cuz I
want to be the only one he can do these things too. good or bad.
I love my friends to death. Dont think Id exclude you guys. You
know who you are, and if you dont, then you odviously dont know
me as well as you think you did.
I have to stop this entry now though. If theres anything I didnt say...dont take it the wrong way, esp bart, if you have read this.
I gotta get sean and take him to work, and I HAVE to pick up Rae
who just called. cuz I love her and I need to talk to her, and
as much as I love ALL my other sisters. you know who you are.
its just...dont take it the wrong way.
Love to all who know I love them. <3
Im not going to put myself down more than I need to.
Just to let everyone or anyone know, prom was good,
besides some issues that only certain people know about
and need to know about, the night was great. I was happy
I went with bart, I wanted no one else to be there with me
except for him, and Rae of course, but she wasnt my date lol.
Well, its just been a bit of a day for me so far. The bf needs
some "him time", and I just kinda really freaked out that he needed
his own space. And Im really mad at myself about it. He can do anything and everything for me, and when he needs this one thing, just this day to himself alone, like, something he just REALLY needs
or needed, I was having the hardest time doing that for him.
I just. Ive gotten so use to seeing him everyday, because I want to.
At first it seemed like a bad habbit if you will. or just, w.e you want to call it. But now I see that I want to see him everyday because I honestly cant get sick of himj. Even if I only get to see him for 5 minutes its better than nothing.
If he reads any of this.
I hope he takes what I say all the right way.
I just, I cant say or do or think all the right things, at the right time. I have a hard time having to think about things. Like I can think, but I am horribly impatients with me and others sometimes.
All he thinks sometimes is that he hurts me, and that all he does is causes me pain, and that I would be better off without him. And in consequence, I think the same thing.
We are a lot alike .
Whether or not he see's it. I
do.
--------------------------------------------------------------------
-We both get stuborn.
-We both yell and get mad.
-We both have walked away from things, even eachother.
-We both can make eachother cry.
-We both can say shit we either dont mean, or just,
its now what we wanted to say.
-We both like dinosaurs.
-We both make eachother laugh.
-We both make the silliest of faces.
-We both love to cuddle and hold hands.
-We both like to smoke...for now...lol.
-We both like to dance silly.
-We both get jealous, even if it is for
silly or "stupid" reasons.
-We both get paranoid.
-We both like to sing out loud
-We both love coconut.
-We both, well me now, LOVE mayo.
-We both love driving withthe windows down, and the system up.
-We both can fart and burp in front of eachother.
-We both love to talk, and help people, and be true blue friends.
-We both love fall and winter, and hate the summer for the same
reasons.
-We both can listen to techno and screamy music.
-We both can type a lot, cause we have a lot to say.
-We both think black is the greatest color ever, even though its really a shade.
-We both make the cutest faces when we zone.
-We both kiss the car roof under a yellow light.
-We both can be imature, and yet, one of the wisest, or most down to earth people we know to eachother.
the list could go on, but this is what I got for now.
I love this boy to death. He is the only one who can make me feel the way I do when Im with him.
-He makes me feel loved, and allows me to love him.
-He makes me feel comfortable to be myself around.
-He does for me what he humanly possibly can to make me happy.
-He makes makes me feel confident/comfortable with my body.
-He is so thoughtful to me, sometimes its rediculous.
-He loves me for who I am.
-He makes me see the best in me, when I can show it.
-He loves to see me as much as I love to see him.
-He thinks about me as much, maybe even more, than I do sometimes.
-He is this amazing person that he cannot see. No matter the baggage he may carry.
-He means so much to me. Sometimes I dont think I show it enough.
for anyone who reads this, and thinks Im obsessed or just. w.e.
you cant really understand why I feel this way, or see why Im
making him, and us such a big deal, and Im happy for it. cuz I
want to be the only one he can do these things too. good or bad.
I love my friends to death. Dont think Id exclude you guys. You
know who you are, and if you dont, then you odviously dont know
me as well as you think you did.
I have to stop this entry now though. If theres anything I didnt say...dont take it the wrong way, esp bart, if you have read this.
I gotta get sean and take him to work, and I HAVE to pick up Rae
who just called. cuz I love her and I need to talk to her, and
as much as I love ALL my other sisters. you know who you are.
its just...dont take it the wrong way.
Love to all who know I love them. <3