man 2016 sucks so far.
A week and a half ago, Tybalt started breathing weird and stopped eating food. I got the first available vet appointment, but it was after I took Sidda in for a hurt hip, which turned out to be nothing beyond needing rest and anti inflammatory meds. I now regret waiting because Tybalt has heart failure and his chest was filling up with fluid. We drained 1/4 of a liter from him. The vet, trying to explain the severity of the situation while being his usual funny self, said "you know how in the Princess bride, he's mostly dead? It's like that."
Sidda had her dental today, which she passed with flying colors. Thank goodness because I thought, if I lose both Sidda and Tybalt today, I'll need to be checked into the psych ward. Sidda was great and her heart stayed stable the entire time. Her dental went well and only one baby tooth came out but it was so lose they pulled it up and I got to keep it. I brought Tybalt in after my walks and they said he still has fluid in his chest from his heart failure and they are doubling his meds. If this doesn't work, then nothing will. So in a week, I'll go back and we'll figure it all out.
I really am trying to do everything I can and knowing that, sooner or later, I'm not going to be able to save my cat is going to break me. I love my animals so fiercely. I realize that when we are all in the same room, I feel calmer. I've grown into this little family and even though I can use my rational brain to know he is very very sick and I will do anything to prevent his suffering, at some point, I'm going to fail and he will be the first of our family to leave us. It's this thought that will break my heart in a way that it won't heal. And just like with Luna, I'll carry this heart break with me for the rest of my life.
Sidda had her dental today, which she passed with flying colors. Thank goodness because I thought, if I lose both Sidda and Tybalt today, I'll need to be checked into the psych ward. Sidda was great and her heart stayed stable the entire time. Her dental went well and only one baby tooth came out but it was so lose they pulled it up and I got to keep it. I brought Tybalt in after my walks and they said he still has fluid in his chest from his heart failure and they are doubling his meds. If this doesn't work, then nothing will. So in a week, I'll go back and we'll figure it all out.
I really am trying to do everything I can and knowing that, sooner or later, I'm not going to be able to save my cat is going to break me. I love my animals so fiercely. I realize that when we are all in the same room, I feel calmer. I've grown into this little family and even though I can use my rational brain to know he is very very sick and I will do anything to prevent his suffering, at some point, I'm going to fail and he will be the first of our family to leave us. It's this thought that will break my heart in a way that it won't heal. And just like with Luna, I'll carry this heart break with me for the rest of my life.