What a Crazy World
I know it's been awhile- sue me. I've had a lot to do and it seems like never enough time to do it in. Maybe that has to do with the fact that I am the kind of person who prefers instant gratification instead of doing what is necessary and then reaping the benefits. Well, not in everything. For clarification: I prefer to spend Friday and Saturday goofing off and having fun before pushing myself to the extreme homework on Sunday...and that is usually Sunday night. I'm probably not alone in this, but it often creates stress for moi.
SA has been crazy busy lately. That probably is because just about everything I do this semester happens at the same time, and that same time is now. I have to do Voter Registration, Off Campus packets, and Intercultural Night dinner right now. It's just a bit overwhelming.
Voter Reg is making me tear my hair out right now. I keep comparing it to the campaign that we ran last year. I know that's not a good idea, considering that this isn't a national election and we knew it was going to be harder, but I guess I keep narrowing it down to Josh's leadership and my leadership. It's the first time I've run a big campaign like this on my own, without any help from Josh and I feel like I'm failing miserably. It's not as cohesive, people are confused, and it's all falling back to me. I know that I shouldn't rely on Josh all the time, as he will not always be there, and it's time for me to be a leader on my own, but I don't know what to do sometimes and it's so easy to turn to his leadership expertise in this.
But that's all. It's funny lately, that people seem to be commenting on how much he and I seem to be hanging out again. Josh and I are friends, and we always will be no matter what one or the other does. It's just like that. And I hang out with my friends when I can. Not to mention we have Always with a capital 'A' worked on issues like this together. We just make a good team...until this team. I guess I just get frustrated because as busy as I am in everything that I do I know that if he was leading something and needed help I would be there. Actually, that goes for everyone. But it saddens me when he's not there for me. Maybe that's not such a good friendship after all.
I've talked about this before though. I can't expect people to drop everything for me like I do for them. That wouldn't be right. I am who I am and they are who they are. *Le sigh*
So obviously school has started. And boy did it start with a bang. I'm very suddenly realizing that two days off of class was a bad idea - I pack it with everything else! Then I suddenly have no days off, even though I was counting on them being off. Definitely something to modify quickly. Hopefully things will go a lot smoother when I transfer information into my planner and it becomes my best friend. I almost missed my first two assignments of the semester because I haven't had a chance to write everything in my planner yet. It's okay though, I got 'em done.
On the best friend note, I went to Alfred last weekend to visit Craig and Logan. It was a spontaneous trip and one of the best ever! I am so glad that I went out to see them- I don't care if I had to stay up late the next few nights to get all my work done. The two of them just make me so happy! I love Craigory, he is my best friend and I've known him forever. We have a special bond, in my mind, that will and can never be broken. Too late, darling, you're in my life forever! Logan is already on my list of favorite people, as well. He is incredibly adorable and entirely too sweet. While Craig walked ahead with his friends, Logan stayed back with me to make sure that I was having a good time. He also gave me hugs all the time when I was there, which was awesome cause I kept giving them to him too. I just want to go visit them all the time now.
I've tried to meet up with my friends, now that everyone is back, but that proves to be much harder than I had anticipated. My schedule is chock full and my friends only have certain times that they are available as well. Often I wish I could turn back time to Putnam and the midnight talks that Heather and I had. That will forever be imprinted in my memory and something that I yearn to get back somehow. Meadows to TH is a bit far to walk though. I guess we'll have to see what happens.
I haven't talked to Jeremiah in awhile, only twice since Cali and neither longer than 20 or so minutes. We have had times in our friendship where we go weeks or months without talking, it just seems very convenient right now. While I loved going the Cali and seeing it, I can't help but thinking it was a mistake. And I'm not saying anything against either one of us, sometimes things like that happen. I guess I'm just lucky to have had the friendship for as long as I did. I definitely will remember those three hour conversations with fondness.
I bet this is a long entry. I know I should write more often, because I have all these ideas of what I want to write and just let them build up. Then, when I sit down to write everything comes flooding out and I definitely forget to put things down that I want to, and things come out very different than I meant them to be. *shrugs* I guess that happens.
I should not forget to mention that writing this has helped me to relax. This past week has been one of the most stressful of my life and I appreciate this and all of the people who helped me to calm down from an unnatural level of stress.
While it may be jumbled, that is the glimpse into my life for today. Enjoy!
SA has been crazy busy lately. That probably is because just about everything I do this semester happens at the same time, and that same time is now. I have to do Voter Registration, Off Campus packets, and Intercultural Night dinner right now. It's just a bit overwhelming.
Voter Reg is making me tear my hair out right now. I keep comparing it to the campaign that we ran last year. I know that's not a good idea, considering that this isn't a national election and we knew it was going to be harder, but I guess I keep narrowing it down to Josh's leadership and my leadership. It's the first time I've run a big campaign like this on my own, without any help from Josh and I feel like I'm failing miserably. It's not as cohesive, people are confused, and it's all falling back to me. I know that I shouldn't rely on Josh all the time, as he will not always be there, and it's time for me to be a leader on my own, but I don't know what to do sometimes and it's so easy to turn to his leadership expertise in this.
But that's all. It's funny lately, that people seem to be commenting on how much he and I seem to be hanging out again. Josh and I are friends, and we always will be no matter what one or the other does. It's just like that. And I hang out with my friends when I can. Not to mention we have Always with a capital 'A' worked on issues like this together. We just make a good team...until this team. I guess I just get frustrated because as busy as I am in everything that I do I know that if he was leading something and needed help I would be there. Actually, that goes for everyone. But it saddens me when he's not there for me. Maybe that's not such a good friendship after all.
I've talked about this before though. I can't expect people to drop everything for me like I do for them. That wouldn't be right. I am who I am and they are who they are. *Le sigh*
So obviously school has started. And boy did it start with a bang. I'm very suddenly realizing that two days off of class was a bad idea - I pack it with everything else! Then I suddenly have no days off, even though I was counting on them being off. Definitely something to modify quickly. Hopefully things will go a lot smoother when I transfer information into my planner and it becomes my best friend. I almost missed my first two assignments of the semester because I haven't had a chance to write everything in my planner yet. It's okay though, I got 'em done.
On the best friend note, I went to Alfred last weekend to visit Craig and Logan. It was a spontaneous trip and one of the best ever! I am so glad that I went out to see them- I don't care if I had to stay up late the next few nights to get all my work done. The two of them just make me so happy! I love Craigory, he is my best friend and I've known him forever. We have a special bond, in my mind, that will and can never be broken. Too late, darling, you're in my life forever! Logan is already on my list of favorite people, as well. He is incredibly adorable and entirely too sweet. While Craig walked ahead with his friends, Logan stayed back with me to make sure that I was having a good time. He also gave me hugs all the time when I was there, which was awesome cause I kept giving them to him too. I just want to go visit them all the time now.
I've tried to meet up with my friends, now that everyone is back, but that proves to be much harder than I had anticipated. My schedule is chock full and my friends only have certain times that they are available as well. Often I wish I could turn back time to Putnam and the midnight talks that Heather and I had. That will forever be imprinted in my memory and something that I yearn to get back somehow. Meadows to TH is a bit far to walk though. I guess we'll have to see what happens.
I haven't talked to Jeremiah in awhile, only twice since Cali and neither longer than 20 or so minutes. We have had times in our friendship where we go weeks or months without talking, it just seems very convenient right now. While I loved going the Cali and seeing it, I can't help but thinking it was a mistake. And I'm not saying anything against either one of us, sometimes things like that happen. I guess I'm just lucky to have had the friendship for as long as I did. I definitely will remember those three hour conversations with fondness.
I bet this is a long entry. I know I should write more often, because I have all these ideas of what I want to write and just let them build up. Then, when I sit down to write everything comes flooding out and I definitely forget to put things down that I want to, and things come out very different than I meant them to be. *shrugs* I guess that happens.
I should not forget to mention that writing this has helped me to relax. This past week has been one of the most stressful of my life and I appreciate this and all of the people who helped me to calm down from an unnatural level of stress.
While it may be jumbled, that is the glimpse into my life for today. Enjoy!