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well i took a drive tonight.
I just got a full tank of gas today & i recived a few late birthday checks on friday.
cashed them today
anyway..
i was driving.
i went north on 75.
where would that take me?
Yeah...where i want to go
& i actually concidered leaving. I had money, i had a change of cloths.(you always need that in your car btw) two packs of cigarettes & good music.
that would last me the trip.
of course i didnt do it...am i an idiot?
sometimes yes, tonight...no.
the further & further i drove away, the more i felt that i was running away from my fear.
I don't want to leave, until i have something to leave with
or someone to go for.
I dont think i could ever leave, just for my self. Pathedic, i know.
so after an hour & a half i turned around.
i'll be making a trip soon enough.
essintaly the further i went, the more empty i felt.
not that i'm leaving behind anything...
just my camera, computer & hairbrush.
anyway.
glad that made no sense what so ever.
i really need to write lyrics or..something
all i do is just tell factual stories now a days.
it gets boring.
i write little enteresting things in my xanga if you want...i dunno. plus there are photos on ther,e but all the same ones that are on here.
but there's also good music.
anyway
fullcontrol
goodnight.<3...
I just got a full tank of gas today & i recived a few late birthday checks on friday.
cashed them today
anyway..
i was driving.
i went north on 75.
where would that take me?
Yeah...where i want to go
& i actually concidered leaving. I had money, i had a change of cloths.(you always need that in your car btw) two packs of cigarettes & good music.
that would last me the trip.
of course i didnt do it...am i an idiot?
sometimes yes, tonight...no.
the further & further i drove away, the more i felt that i was running away from my fear.
I don't want to leave, until i have something to leave with
or someone to go for.
I dont think i could ever leave, just for my self. Pathedic, i know.
so after an hour & a half i turned around.
i'll be making a trip soon enough.
essintaly the further i went, the more empty i felt.
not that i'm leaving behind anything...
just my camera, computer & hairbrush.
anyway.
glad that made no sense what so ever.
i really need to write lyrics or..something
all i do is just tell factual stories now a days.
it gets boring.
i write little enteresting things in my xanga if you want...i dunno. plus there are photos on ther,e but all the same ones that are on here.
but there's also good music.
anyway
fullcontrol
goodnight.<3...