The Past, The Present, and The Regrets.
I am not in a posting mood... but I'm doing it anyways. Tonight I saw "The Social Network." Good movie summarizing the story of Facebook's inception. It really made me start to realize how time is passing quickly, now seeing a movie written about a socially significant point in time that I lived through and took part in. I've found myself a sucker for idolizing the past. 2004! Best year ever!... Yeah, I'm beginning to realize that the past was "so great" because I choose to remember only the good times. After doing some livejournal archive stalking, I began to remember A LOT of things that have slipped my mind, mainly times I was hurt or hurt others. I'm not sure if that realization was a good thing or not, because although it is truth, it destroys those seemingly perfect memories. archive stalking has also made me relive a lot of those experiences, and although most people either forgot the events happened or no longer care at all, I feel the need to publicly apologize for any pain I caused people so many years ago. I'm kinda making myself seem like a horrible person in this, but I think it's better than glorifying myself. I feel that my immature teenage behaviors and actions have distanced me in the long run from some very great people and it kills me to know that for the most part, there's nothing I can do to change that. To the girl that I broke up with at the end of a school year and completely abandon after being such a close friend, I'm sorry. To the girl that I neglected when she looked to me for comfort, I'm sorry. The more I look back on the past, the more I regret. It's time to realize the past is the past, and tomorrow's past regrets are in my hands to decide upon today. There are always good and bad experiences in all points throughout our lives; it's time to make the best of the opportunities available to us in the present.