The Popping of B, Part One: The Letter
B and his cat-doppleganger were walking in the mangosteen grove. It was nice and warm, and with winter approaching, they both wanted nice and warm.
B tilted his head as he found a treasure chest in the grove, unguarded. Curious, he opened it to find something glowing. He reached out with a hand and the glowing transferred to B and cat!B.
What Kusuriyuri had speculated would happen did.
The two Bs didn't just reunite in one body.
They reintegrated.
Beyond blinked. Strangely, he did not feel as happy or as boastful as he used to be. Maybe his other half was tempering his anger.
He sat in the mangosteen grove for a few hours, petting the now perfectly normal cat. He came to a decision, returning to his room one last time, Dictaquills and parchment at the ready.
Dear L, A, Mello, Near, Kusuriyuri, Kurama, and River.
I have regained my body.
Before you go off in a panic, let me explain.
I'm not just two personalities in one body anymore. I'm one. The nicer side is keeping my murderous side at bay.
When I first came under the wing of Quillish Whammy, one of the first things he did was show me a recording of my father's death. He subsequently punished me for crying, as this was meant to make me be indifferent to the lives lost. What HAPPENED was I perceived this as 'kill or be killed' in the loosest sense of the term.
So I repressed the side of me that wanted to please and be friends, in order to become cruel. That repressed side of me didn't reemerge until I was punished, this time justly.
I do not provide this as an excuse for my actions, only context.
I have thought about my actions, as both halves, and I've come to a conclusion: I'm leaving Hogwarts. I don't know where I'm going, but I need to be someplace where people didn't know me as one extreme or another.
I have some things to say:
L-I still think I drove Matt away. For that, I'm sorry.
Mello- I still think you and I are very similar. I wish I had known you better as more than one of my punishers.
Near-I have nothing to say to you. In my opinion, Mello is the better successor.
Kurama-At first, I came to your greenhouse as 'punishment'. But over time, I've enjoyed helping you out. Thank you.
River Tam-I'll admit it, I'm jealous of you. You've gotten a part of A I wish I had. I wish the two of you the best of luck.
Kusuriyuri-I think, aside from A, YOU'RE the person I'm going to miss most. You've been such a help to me, even more than L has. Thank you.
A- There isn't enough paper in the world to express how much I'm sorry for all the things I've done to you. Hindsight being twenty-twenty, I can say it was love at first sight when I met you. Then I was traumatized and became obsessed with being number one, and that meant hurting you. I twisted YOU, and drove you to...well, you know.
Know this A, I love you. And I'm sorry.
I realize this letter won't be enough to make amends for what I did, so I have something else. Please go to the Popcorn room to find out what.
Tell Naomi Misora goodbye for me.
Yours,
Beyond Birthday
B tilted his head as he found a treasure chest in the grove, unguarded. Curious, he opened it to find something glowing. He reached out with a hand and the glowing transferred to B and cat!B.
What Kusuriyuri had speculated would happen did.
The two Bs didn't just reunite in one body.
They reintegrated.
Beyond blinked. Strangely, he did not feel as happy or as boastful as he used to be. Maybe his other half was tempering his anger.
He sat in the mangosteen grove for a few hours, petting the now perfectly normal cat. He came to a decision, returning to his room one last time, Dictaquills and parchment at the ready.
Dear L, A, Mello, Near, Kusuriyuri, Kurama, and River.
I have regained my body.
Before you go off in a panic, let me explain.
I'm not just two personalities in one body anymore. I'm one. The nicer side is keeping my murderous side at bay.
When I first came under the wing of Quillish Whammy, one of the first things he did was show me a recording of my father's death. He subsequently punished me for crying, as this was meant to make me be indifferent to the lives lost. What HAPPENED was I perceived this as 'kill or be killed' in the loosest sense of the term.
So I repressed the side of me that wanted to please and be friends, in order to become cruel. That repressed side of me didn't reemerge until I was punished, this time justly.
I do not provide this as an excuse for my actions, only context.
I have thought about my actions, as both halves, and I've come to a conclusion: I'm leaving Hogwarts. I don't know where I'm going, but I need to be someplace where people didn't know me as one extreme or another.
I have some things to say:
L-I still think I drove Matt away. For that, I'm sorry.
Mello- I still think you and I are very similar. I wish I had known you better as more than one of my punishers.
Near-I have nothing to say to you. In my opinion, Mello is the better successor.
Kurama-At first, I came to your greenhouse as 'punishment'. But over time, I've enjoyed helping you out. Thank you.
River Tam-I'll admit it, I'm jealous of you. You've gotten a part of A I wish I had. I wish the two of you the best of luck.
Kusuriyuri-I think, aside from A, YOU'RE the person I'm going to miss most. You've been such a help to me, even more than L has. Thank you.
A- There isn't enough paper in the world to express how much I'm sorry for all the things I've done to you. Hindsight being twenty-twenty, I can say it was love at first sight when I met you. Then I was traumatized and became obsessed with being number one, and that meant hurting you. I twisted YOU, and drove you to...well, you know.
Know this A, I love you. And I'm sorry.
I realize this letter won't be enough to make amends for what I did, so I have something else. Please go to the Popcorn room to find out what.
Tell Naomi Misora goodbye for me.
Yours,
Beyond Birthday