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I noticed that summer is full of failures...
Failed College.
Failed Relationships.
Failed Friendships.
Failed Mental & Physical Health.
Failure left and right.
But then again... Failure is sometimes a good thing.
A Good friend said, " It's okay if you fail. Just pick yourself up and fix it. It's no use to just mope around doing nothing. Use it to make yourself better. Make it your strength. "
Coasting... I've been coasting through life. Somehow, I can absorb things and regurgitate them for exams easily. And only now am I starting to realize that it's not gonna get me anywhere that I really want to go. I coasted through K-12 and I ended up in Central. Not by choice or fate or skill or intelligence. Dumb Luck and good genes (Thank you Mother & Father). I didn't even apply anywhere else. Well, Technically that's a lie. I sent an application to OU & WSU. Central is the only college that I sent my Transcript and got accepted to out of 2 colleges.
I didn't have any preferences as to where I wanted to go. I just wanted one thing: To go. Just go. Anywhere. Didn't matter where. I just didn't want to be where I am. I sent an application to WSU & OU to appease my dad. I was neither accepted or denied cause I never sent my transcript. It was too close to home.
I didn't get into GVSU. Good thing too... The only reason I wanted to go there was because my sister was there. Another point to bring up. Classes I took in High School. My extra-curricular activities. My major. Everything! I picked because of my sister. It seemed so much easier to take a path someone else had taken. But we're not the same people.
As of right now, This isn't where I ever picture myself to be. Not that I ever had a picture of my future drawn out in my head. And even if I did, I don't it would include Drinking, Smoking, Doing Drugs and Failing in everything in life. But then again, Life always full of surprises. I always saw myself as a serious student in college. I figured, I should get it all out of my system in High School since it didn't matter. In the end, What I did in High School is all I knew how to do in College.
But now that I got all the crazy out of my system and faced the consequences of doing so... It feels as if I'm growing as a person. Which hasn't happened in a really long time.
Failed College.
Failed Relationships.
Failed Friendships.
Failed Mental & Physical Health.
Failure left and right.
But then again... Failure is sometimes a good thing.
A Good friend said, " It's okay if you fail. Just pick yourself up and fix it. It's no use to just mope around doing nothing. Use it to make yourself better. Make it your strength. "
Coasting... I've been coasting through life. Somehow, I can absorb things and regurgitate them for exams easily. And only now am I starting to realize that it's not gonna get me anywhere that I really want to go. I coasted through K-12 and I ended up in Central. Not by choice or fate or skill or intelligence. Dumb Luck and good genes (Thank you Mother & Father). I didn't even apply anywhere else. Well, Technically that's a lie. I sent an application to OU & WSU. Central is the only college that I sent my Transcript and got accepted to out of 2 colleges.
I didn't have any preferences as to where I wanted to go. I just wanted one thing: To go. Just go. Anywhere. Didn't matter where. I just didn't want to be where I am. I sent an application to WSU & OU to appease my dad. I was neither accepted or denied cause I never sent my transcript. It was too close to home.
I didn't get into GVSU. Good thing too... The only reason I wanted to go there was because my sister was there. Another point to bring up. Classes I took in High School. My extra-curricular activities. My major. Everything! I picked because of my sister. It seemed so much easier to take a path someone else had taken. But we're not the same people.
As of right now, This isn't where I ever picture myself to be. Not that I ever had a picture of my future drawn out in my head. And even if I did, I don't it would include Drinking, Smoking, Doing Drugs and Failing in everything in life. But then again, Life always full of surprises. I always saw myself as a serious student in college. I figured, I should get it all out of my system in High School since it didn't matter. In the end, What I did in High School is all I knew how to do in College.
But now that I got all the crazy out of my system and faced the consequences of doing so... It feels as if I'm growing as a person. Which hasn't happened in a really long time.