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i want to update my relationship status to "its complicated" at the very least, but i also don't feel comfortable doing that, since neither of us has actually met in person. :(
I've screwed up enough relationships, i've connected with so many wrong ones,... i don't think i can even recognize a healthy stable one even if it sat in my lap. Even though i know i want someone to share my life with, in such great intimate detail... not just in words, but the physicality of it all.
i'm 42, potentially could drop dead any second... i don't want to die not having succeeded at such a "simple" thing as a long lasting longterm relationship of spousal conformity.
I've screwed up enough relationships, i've connected with so many wrong ones,... i don't think i can even recognize a healthy stable one even if it sat in my lap. Even though i know i want someone to share my life with, in such great intimate detail... not just in words, but the physicality of it all.
i'm 42, potentially could drop dead any second... i don't want to die not having succeeded at such a "simple" thing as a long lasting longterm relationship of spousal conformity.