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pursuant to the potential.... i dearly hope he hasn't decided to 'block' me or intentionally ignore me; at least without telling/explaining to me why... not knowing why (known) would drive me insane for a very long time.
He's seemingly the perfect guy (minus the dark hair of course, lol but a bottle of hair dye fixes that. lol), and he's not uber super muscled, but heh, thats a bonus anyways, not a 'must have'.
damn, i hate this 'taking it slow' part. i want to hop right in, and SInk or Swim, as it were. but at this point, i think the reason why i want to sink or swim, is i just don't fucking give a shit anymore. if i sink, and it all ends. fine. death is preferable then continued life without love/intamacy and affection, from someone other then your parents for gods sake.
and yet, i'm to shallow, fearful, lazy, etc to commit suicide, so i'll probably just sit around like an empty derilect space ship, collecting meteor pits and cosmic radiation until i disintegrate into my constiuent particles again.
He's seemingly the perfect guy (minus the dark hair of course, lol but a bottle of hair dye fixes that. lol), and he's not uber super muscled, but heh, thats a bonus anyways, not a 'must have'.
damn, i hate this 'taking it slow' part. i want to hop right in, and SInk or Swim, as it were. but at this point, i think the reason why i want to sink or swim, is i just don't fucking give a shit anymore. if i sink, and it all ends. fine. death is preferable then continued life without love/intamacy and affection, from someone other then your parents for gods sake.
and yet, i'm to shallow, fearful, lazy, etc to commit suicide, so i'll probably just sit around like an empty derilect space ship, collecting meteor pits and cosmic radiation until i disintegrate into my constiuent particles again.